I fiddled with this song, and dedicated it to my beautiful soul-sister Belinda. Now I know that this is a God thing because I may be many things, but I would not count 'songwriter' in there. I know that I get alot out of this song too, and I believe it's Gods song. I'm flattered that he let me be involved.
More than you will ever know
As I look into your eyes
I see the pain that churns so deep inside
Because your carrying the weight
Of a world which burns all hope alive
It's time you opened up your ears
And hear the sound of knocking on the door
Realize this roads to hard to walk
Without a shoulder to lean your head upon
Oh I, Love you more than you will ever know
And I'll take you in my arms and never let you go
I'll catch every tear which falls down from your eyes
Oh now, we're walking side by side
Your hand resting safely within mine
Your heart has heard the call
And it longs to dwell within my courts
Till you catch a glimpse of lies
The ones that shredded the dreams you hold inside
Yet you turn away once more
To chase those lies right out the door
Till you end up where you were
crawling back to me and crying out for more
Oh I, Love you more than you will ever know
And I'll take you in my arms and never let you go
I'll catch every tear which falls down from your eyes
Oh now, we're walking side by side
Your hand resting safely within mine
...
Your heart resting safely within mine...
J.R.Braybrook, 2005
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Homeward Bound.
It seems that the end of another University year has arrived.
I was up at 7am this morning in order to drive Wae Jae to a work related conference,I had insisted the night before that we leave at 8am because I was sure he didn't know where we were going, all he had was a street name and number, apart frm that he was running blind.
But in fine Wae Jae style we didn't leave untill 8:20 which meant that we were driving blindly around town desperately trying to find the street. I tend to handle this sort of stress okay, and not much fazes me, but I draw the line at being talked to like I'm an idiot. Obviously in his frustration, Wae jae started twisting the whole situation so that it was somehow my fault, and preceded to talk to me with the language one might use when speaking to a 5 year old. I mustered up all my strength to keep myself from driving his side of the car into a telegraph pole.
when we finally found the street, I stopped the car one building before the one he would enter and he refused to leave the car until I stopped it in front of the one he wanted...by this stage was silently fuming, while pleading with God to stop me from blowing up. In my stubbornness I told him that considering the circumstances I just endured, I think he could manage to walk 3 meters. And he did.
Things have been interesting in regards to my relationship with Wae Jae. I think he's an absolutely great guy. He just, honestly believes that the whole revolves around himself, and if it doesn't...then it should. majority of the time I'm able to ammuse myself highly with one of my favourite quotes of his, which I use often being "The whole World doesn't revolve around me Jessica".
I guess my only complaint is that while I'm happy to invest in his life, I'm not always convinced that he's doing the same thing on the flip-side...and that wears you down. I guess when you take the time to know someone, and sincerely want to help them and encourage them through life, I'm the sort of person that needs that sort of investment in me also.
When I've chatted to Wae Jae about it, he's always come out with a line like "I'm not your boyfriend Jess" To which I inwardly (And probably have stated outwardly also) scoffed "And just as well - or I think you'd be living in the dog house"
But I don't know, I guess I feel that he's being a cop-out! you don't have to be dating someone in order to invest in them. I think he needs to start looking beyond himself a bit more.
I didn't start writing this in order to create a slag-out Wae Jae session, perhaps my thoughts are irrational, but thats what I'm feeling at the moment, and so in the spirit of honesty I typed them straight up here.
till I type again, stay beautiful.
P.S. and in regards to the post title, I'm heading home on Friday - back to Forster.
So Bee and Hayley; I'll see you soon gorgeous gals.
I was up at 7am this morning in order to drive Wae Jae to a work related conference,I had insisted the night before that we leave at 8am because I was sure he didn't know where we were going, all he had was a street name and number, apart frm that he was running blind.
But in fine Wae Jae style we didn't leave untill 8:20 which meant that we were driving blindly around town desperately trying to find the street. I tend to handle this sort of stress okay, and not much fazes me, but I draw the line at being talked to like I'm an idiot. Obviously in his frustration, Wae jae started twisting the whole situation so that it was somehow my fault, and preceded to talk to me with the language one might use when speaking to a 5 year old. I mustered up all my strength to keep myself from driving his side of the car into a telegraph pole.
when we finally found the street, I stopped the car one building before the one he would enter and he refused to leave the car until I stopped it in front of the one he wanted...by this stage was silently fuming, while pleading with God to stop me from blowing up. In my stubbornness I told him that considering the circumstances I just endured, I think he could manage to walk 3 meters. And he did.
Things have been interesting in regards to my relationship with Wae Jae. I think he's an absolutely great guy. He just, honestly believes that the whole revolves around himself, and if it doesn't...then it should. majority of the time I'm able to ammuse myself highly with one of my favourite quotes of his, which I use often being "The whole World doesn't revolve around me Jessica".
I guess my only complaint is that while I'm happy to invest in his life, I'm not always convinced that he's doing the same thing on the flip-side...and that wears you down. I guess when you take the time to know someone, and sincerely want to help them and encourage them through life, I'm the sort of person that needs that sort of investment in me also.
When I've chatted to Wae Jae about it, he's always come out with a line like "I'm not your boyfriend Jess" To which I inwardly (And probably have stated outwardly also) scoffed "And just as well - or I think you'd be living in the dog house"
But I don't know, I guess I feel that he's being a cop-out! you don't have to be dating someone in order to invest in them. I think he needs to start looking beyond himself a bit more.
I didn't start writing this in order to create a slag-out Wae Jae session, perhaps my thoughts are irrational, but thats what I'm feeling at the moment, and so in the spirit of honesty I typed them straight up here.
till I type again, stay beautiful.
P.S. and in regards to the post title, I'm heading home on Friday - back to Forster.
So Bee and Hayley; I'll see you soon gorgeous gals.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Herbie Hiccups...
Okay, so I'm trying to do the healthy thing and I must say that I'm genuinely enjoying it - bar one thing. I'm on these Herbal suppliments which are suppose to ensure I get all the vitamins and minerals I need as well as encourage more energy. But every time I burp I get this terrible herby aftertaste, which is absolutely revolting to say the least.
Bec and I have been walking the hill, and I realized another reason for wanting to get into shape. IN nearly exactly a year Bec and Trev are getting married and I've been incredibly honoured to be asked to be one of their bridesmaids. So for the last 6 months I've been ragging on Bec to get some horrible frilly, puffy, longsleeved, high necked, booted wedding gown, and then she goes and asks me to be her bridesmaid and I'm just waiting to see the ugly payback for those months of taunting brought into being in the form of what I shall wear for their big day...Oh dear, what have I done :P
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Trev came over to stay in Armidale last night, and it was great to see the bloke again - actually it was gorgeous to see the happy couple looking so...well, happy. They're actually a pretty incredible match, they compliment each other beautifuly.....this is where I go all girly and say something along the lines of "Awwww...looooove"
Trev(Wevvy), Bec(Sheep-hearder), Charissa (charisma), Me and Wae-Jae (wedgie)
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Not alot else has happened, I'm 2 days to the completion of my third year of Uni, YAY!!
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Oh, I'm heading back to Melbourne in late November. My sis Kate and a good friend Erin were looking to head that way and since they knew how much I loved Melbourne, invited me to join them there. Can't say any of the details yet, as there really isn't anything to know, except We'll most probably be flying Jet star, and unless other arrangements are made, we'll be staying at my Awesome Aunty Jans Place.
Belinda wherever you are, You've got to come too, there'll be more people this time and we learnt a lesson last time....this trip will be oodles better ;)
Bec and I have been walking the hill, and I realized another reason for wanting to get into shape. IN nearly exactly a year Bec and Trev are getting married and I've been incredibly honoured to be asked to be one of their bridesmaids. So for the last 6 months I've been ragging on Bec to get some horrible frilly, puffy, longsleeved, high necked, booted wedding gown, and then she goes and asks me to be her bridesmaid and I'm just waiting to see the ugly payback for those months of taunting brought into being in the form of what I shall wear for their big day...Oh dear, what have I done :P
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Trev came over to stay in Armidale last night, and it was great to see the bloke again - actually it was gorgeous to see the happy couple looking so...well, happy. They're actually a pretty incredible match, they compliment each other beautifuly.....this is where I go all girly and say something along the lines of "Awwww...looooove"
Trev(Wevvy), Bec(Sheep-hearder), Charissa (charisma), Me and Wae-Jae (wedgie)
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Not alot else has happened, I'm 2 days to the completion of my third year of Uni, YAY!!
...........................
Oh, I'm heading back to Melbourne in late November. My sis Kate and a good friend Erin were looking to head that way and since they knew how much I loved Melbourne, invited me to join them there. Can't say any of the details yet, as there really isn't anything to know, except We'll most probably be flying Jet star, and unless other arrangements are made, we'll be staying at my Awesome Aunty Jans Place.
Belinda wherever you are, You've got to come too, there'll be more people this time and we learnt a lesson last time....this trip will be oodles better ;)
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