A friend asked me to put more piccies of the new hair up. Thanks Waje for snapping these, so they'll have to do.
who knew hair was so fascinating.
Monday, March 27, 2006
Upon Request.
A friend asked me to put more piccies of the new hair up. Thanks Waje for snapping these, so they'll have to do.
who knew hair was so fascinating.
Out with the Old, in with the New.
So I decided a change was in order.If you know me well, then you know that I'm generally willing to have a go at most things I feel like doing with my hair. Afterall, it is hair, and unlike some male bloggers I have the pleasure of knowing, mine_will_grow back. ;) [alright, alright, lets keep it above the waist shall we, or I'll end up with a broken jaw :P]
and so, I decided on friday afternoon, that I had stuck with the colour red for too long.
The new colour is a dark brown. To the untrained eye one may say black - but alas it is a brown. It actually turned out darker than I expected, and I'm still unsure as to whether I really like it or not. But it's a change and a change is as good as a holiday. (I doubt it, but a change is good).....
Best Part of my week?
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Lounging around on Tims Bed with Lozza and the boy on a saturday morning, watching episodes of "The Family Guy"
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Revelations.
I've been sitting here for about 5 minutes, trying to hold in a laugh as the bloke on the computer beside me picks his nose, then spends the next 10 seconds examining it, before wiping it down the front of his pants. I wonder if he even realises how disgusting that habit really is...
Last night Was a night of clarification it seems.
Headed along to bible study at Nicks and Waje's - only Nick and Waje weren't there, Laura and I were holding fort this week, as Waje headed out and Nick is spending the week on holiday in Coffs Harbour [Lucky bugger!]
We've been looking at a series of DVD teachings by John Bevere entitled "Drawing closer: True intimacy with God"
Last nights topic really settled some ponderings of my own heart. He was speaking on the fear of God.
Now this is something I've heard time and time again, yet never completely grasped. When the word 'fear' is spoken my little pea-brain human mind, creates this understanding on a world level. Fear: A feeling of agitation and anxiety caused by the presence or imminence of danger.
I guess for a long time I've really struggled with the whole issue of a healthy God fear, because I just can't bring myself to a place where I dread God. [I know thats a good thing].
I decided a long time ago that the fear of God which we, his children are called into, is that of Extreme reverence or awe of utter respect brought into being by an understanding of just who he is. God, Jahovah, Messiah, Alpha-omega... - and that, I know I have.
In the back of my mind however, as John spoke, I really started to question; do I live my life in such a way that nurtures my healthy fear. Then John spoke these words: "People who fear the Lord are willing to be obedient to him, even if they cannot understand or see the goodness of his plan."
I felt the goosebumps. In the last 4 days I could see area's where I struggled to understand yet chose to be obedient to God. I'm not trying to hold myself up as a saint, because all of you who know me, I who know myself and my God who knows me best of all, can see with little effort that I am a hopeless case- a bum on the street, who by nothing less than grace is slowly and humbly being polished into a Jewel of Gods keeping.
I was moved tremendously as John continued further, "God will not enter a place where he is not treated with the utmost respect...he is a holy God, a righteous King, he deserves to be treated as nothing less"
Have I been giving God that sort of respect in my life?!
The mob of us chatted for a while afterwards, which was great. I always appreciate the views of others, but more than that, I adore listening to people as they speak of it's applications within their lives. I love people!
I dropped Von and John[a newbie from Sudan] home and just as I began reversing out of the carpark, there was a loud thump on the back of the car. First reaction : WHAT THE HELL DID I HIT!!! I swing around to find the goofey face of Rhen staring in my window. We chatted for a while about this and that and everything else. That girl makes me laugh. she thought it was hilarious that her hitting the car had convinced me I'd hit something, we decided it would have been funnier if I had jumped out of the car and she were laying behind the back tyre, sprawled out on the road.
We bid each other farwell and as I started up the car I heard a loud thump - a smile crept up my cheeks, I knew exactly what to do - I lept out of the car in mock terror and ran round the back, and there was Rhen sprawled behind the back tyre, half her body under the car, leg twisted back to almost broken angles....I laughed so hard, the sight was much finer than I ever could have imagined.
Eventually we pulled ourselves together and Rhen raced off to meet Tess while I headed back to Waje's to chat with Laura.
laura confided that she'd missed me terribly today, to which I confessed I'd missed her so badly too! It's probably been the first day in about a week we hadn't spend a few hours chatting and laughing hysterically.
We came to the conclusion that IF ONLY one of us were male, we'de be married in a second. I love that girl :D
Eventually Waje came home and Loz and I left.
Tonight I head over to Riss's place. She's having a little 21st bash herself, because she has no inckling at all, that we're chucking a big surprise 21st Part-ay for her this saturday. Can't wait to see her face :D :P
So tonight, we grab pizza and head up to the stro.
It shall be tamed bliss. ;)
Last night Was a night of clarification it seems.
Headed along to bible study at Nicks and Waje's - only Nick and Waje weren't there, Laura and I were holding fort this week, as Waje headed out and Nick is spending the week on holiday in Coffs Harbour [Lucky bugger!]
We've been looking at a series of DVD teachings by John Bevere entitled "Drawing closer: True intimacy with God"
Last nights topic really settled some ponderings of my own heart. He was speaking on the fear of God.
Now this is something I've heard time and time again, yet never completely grasped. When the word 'fear' is spoken my little pea-brain human mind, creates this understanding on a world level. Fear: A feeling of agitation and anxiety caused by the presence or imminence of danger.
I guess for a long time I've really struggled with the whole issue of a healthy God fear, because I just can't bring myself to a place where I dread God. [I know thats a good thing].
I decided a long time ago that the fear of God which we, his children are called into, is that of Extreme reverence or awe of utter respect brought into being by an understanding of just who he is. God, Jahovah, Messiah, Alpha-omega... - and that, I know I have.
In the back of my mind however, as John spoke, I really started to question; do I live my life in such a way that nurtures my healthy fear. Then John spoke these words: "People who fear the Lord are willing to be obedient to him, even if they cannot understand or see the goodness of his plan."
I felt the goosebumps. In the last 4 days I could see area's where I struggled to understand yet chose to be obedient to God. I'm not trying to hold myself up as a saint, because all of you who know me, I who know myself and my God who knows me best of all, can see with little effort that I am a hopeless case- a bum on the street, who by nothing less than grace is slowly and humbly being polished into a Jewel of Gods keeping.
I was moved tremendously as John continued further, "God will not enter a place where he is not treated with the utmost respect...he is a holy God, a righteous King, he deserves to be treated as nothing less"
Have I been giving God that sort of respect in my life?!
The mob of us chatted for a while afterwards, which was great. I always appreciate the views of others, but more than that, I adore listening to people as they speak of it's applications within their lives. I love people!
I dropped Von and John[a newbie from Sudan] home and just as I began reversing out of the carpark, there was a loud thump on the back of the car. First reaction : WHAT THE HELL DID I HIT!!! I swing around to find the goofey face of Rhen staring in my window. We chatted for a while about this and that and everything else. That girl makes me laugh. she thought it was hilarious that her hitting the car had convinced me I'd hit something, we decided it would have been funnier if I had jumped out of the car and she were laying behind the back tyre, sprawled out on the road.
We bid each other farwell and as I started up the car I heard a loud thump - a smile crept up my cheeks, I knew exactly what to do - I lept out of the car in mock terror and ran round the back, and there was Rhen sprawled behind the back tyre, half her body under the car, leg twisted back to almost broken angles....I laughed so hard, the sight was much finer than I ever could have imagined.
Eventually we pulled ourselves together and Rhen raced off to meet Tess while I headed back to Waje's to chat with Laura.
laura confided that she'd missed me terribly today, to which I confessed I'd missed her so badly too! It's probably been the first day in about a week we hadn't spend a few hours chatting and laughing hysterically.
We came to the conclusion that IF ONLY one of us were male, we'de be married in a second. I love that girl :D
Eventually Waje came home and Loz and I left.
Tonight I head over to Riss's place. She's having a little 21st bash herself, because she has no inckling at all, that we're chucking a big surprise 21st Part-ay for her this saturday. Can't wait to see her face :D :P
So tonight, we grab pizza and head up to the stro.
It shall be tamed bliss. ;)
Monday, March 20, 2006
A New Day...
it's pretty amazing what God can do in a day.
At 4am this morning, in my groggy state, I send Laura a text asking that we could meet up and chat. By the time I woke at around 12pm I had completely forgotten. So instead there I lay moping and deciding that I would spend the day throwing a pity party for myself. Mobile starts ringing, Laura asks if I still want to meet up. I muster up all the advice I'd given to Waje about how locking yourself in your room in a depressive state really only makes you feel worse, and instead decide to head out and meet Laura.
I arrive at Laura's flat, which is one of those annoying ones that require a key to get in the main entryway. Security sound, yet friendly arrival annoying. After a little scrownching around in my bag, realise I don't have my mobile with me..."BUGGER!!"
So instead I go to stand on the other side of the road, giving me a clear view of the Balcony and Tims window, hoping desperately that Laura will see me eventually.
I probably waited there for close to 10 minutes and was just considering jumping in the car, heading home and grabbing my mobile when who should walk out the door, but Tim. The conversation suprised me with it's flow, really not as stunted and uncomfortable as I expected...but still not what I would class as a joy by any means. Laura apparantly headed out about half an hour ago - Tim gave her a ring for me, Thankyou!
I discover the girl mixed herself up, and gave me the wrong instructions. But I wander over to the "other" caffeines. This is going to sound so stupid, but I did get a little teary seeing Tim.
Laura the beautiful grabbed my arm the second she saw me and we walked the rest of the way linked together. As we spotted the cafe` along comes Nick, talking on his mobile. I swear everytime I see him in town he's on that mobile. We put on a bit of a show of Mock surprise, before he asks if he can chat for a min. Loz and I wait while he finishes on the phone. By the end of it there sat Laura, Nick and I in Caffeines.
It was fun, nice distraction really.
After probably an hour Nick headed off and Loz and I were left together to chat about the Tim situation. which was good, the more I talk to friends about it, the more I am convinced that I did the right thing.
God has asked me to be faithful to the convictions he has placed within me, and as desperately as I may not want to be sometimes, as hard as the flesh fights against me, I'm trying, I'm choosing and I'm living what he has called me to live. I don't want to sell out, I don't want to compromise. I swore that I would never do that twice. Yet I considered it anyway.
In one day I can see Gods blessings upon the decision. One of the fruits of the spirit is abundant joy - and today as I sat and chatted with Laura and Nick I felt that. Peace, Love...Gods annointing in my life. I KNOW that I made the right decision and I believe that God will honour that, I do not believe that it is a proud thing to say that I will have Gods annointing poured out on my life. If I am seeking him and his ways in me, if I am honouring and blessing him in my decisions with the sincere desire that his name be glorified. Well then I can know that he will be there and he will come through big time!
Another blessing. Something shifted with Nick today. For the first time we had a relaxed and comfortable conversation. No I'm not in love with him. In fact I believe more ardently that I have more than dealt with that. Laura noticed it too. "Jess I really feel God saying that because you've decided to be mature in your feelings for Nick, your ready to be friends with him" In fact the more I speak to Nick, the more I see two completely different people. I can appreciate him for who he is. But who he is, is not what I desire or need.
After lunch, Laura and I headed back to her flat to retrieve the belt I'd left there when I'd stayed over.
Tim arrived home. I decided to be brave. If I sincerely wanted friendship I had to be willing to be active in the persuit of it.
I wandered in and asked about my ellusive belt, he had no idea where it was, but we ended up chatting for quite some time. It was a little strange, a little awkward. But it loosened up once I verbalised what we were both feeling. And it's agreed, it will be awkward for a while, but we'll work our way through and we can hopefully be great friends. in time.
On my way home, I stopped in to see Waje. He'd complained of a sore throat, so I grabbed a box of Butter Menthols and popped my head in to say "G'day".
Planned to meet before Cell group tomorrow and have dinner. I'm cooking for the boy at 6 at his place. Then at 7 the mob will turn up for bible study. It'll be nice to have some old-day flat experiences with my boy waje.
So yes. A little bit of sadness still lingers. But I am blessed. I am glad that I made a decision to be faithful to what I know I needed. God is Good. Thankyou Lord for amazing friends, thankyou for the support you have placed within my life, thankyou for the joy you fill me with, the spirit of life which makes all things bearable in your strength.
Thankyou friends for your prayer and your wisdom.
At 4am this morning, in my groggy state, I send Laura a text asking that we could meet up and chat. By the time I woke at around 12pm I had completely forgotten. So instead there I lay moping and deciding that I would spend the day throwing a pity party for myself. Mobile starts ringing, Laura asks if I still want to meet up. I muster up all the advice I'd given to Waje about how locking yourself in your room in a depressive state really only makes you feel worse, and instead decide to head out and meet Laura.
I arrive at Laura's flat, which is one of those annoying ones that require a key to get in the main entryway. Security sound, yet friendly arrival annoying. After a little scrownching around in my bag, realise I don't have my mobile with me..."BUGGER!!"
So instead I go to stand on the other side of the road, giving me a clear view of the Balcony and Tims window, hoping desperately that Laura will see me eventually.
I probably waited there for close to 10 minutes and was just considering jumping in the car, heading home and grabbing my mobile when who should walk out the door, but Tim. The conversation suprised me with it's flow, really not as stunted and uncomfortable as I expected...but still not what I would class as a joy by any means. Laura apparantly headed out about half an hour ago - Tim gave her a ring for me, Thankyou!
I discover the girl mixed herself up, and gave me the wrong instructions. But I wander over to the "other" caffeines. This is going to sound so stupid, but I did get a little teary seeing Tim.
Laura the beautiful grabbed my arm the second she saw me and we walked the rest of the way linked together. As we spotted the cafe` along comes Nick, talking on his mobile. I swear everytime I see him in town he's on that mobile. We put on a bit of a show of Mock surprise, before he asks if he can chat for a min. Loz and I wait while he finishes on the phone. By the end of it there sat Laura, Nick and I in Caffeines.
It was fun, nice distraction really.
After probably an hour Nick headed off and Loz and I were left together to chat about the Tim situation. which was good, the more I talk to friends about it, the more I am convinced that I did the right thing.
God has asked me to be faithful to the convictions he has placed within me, and as desperately as I may not want to be sometimes, as hard as the flesh fights against me, I'm trying, I'm choosing and I'm living what he has called me to live. I don't want to sell out, I don't want to compromise. I swore that I would never do that twice. Yet I considered it anyway.
In one day I can see Gods blessings upon the decision. One of the fruits of the spirit is abundant joy - and today as I sat and chatted with Laura and Nick I felt that. Peace, Love...Gods annointing in my life. I KNOW that I made the right decision and I believe that God will honour that, I do not believe that it is a proud thing to say that I will have Gods annointing poured out on my life. If I am seeking him and his ways in me, if I am honouring and blessing him in my decisions with the sincere desire that his name be glorified. Well then I can know that he will be there and he will come through big time!
Another blessing. Something shifted with Nick today. For the first time we had a relaxed and comfortable conversation. No I'm not in love with him. In fact I believe more ardently that I have more than dealt with that. Laura noticed it too. "Jess I really feel God saying that because you've decided to be mature in your feelings for Nick, your ready to be friends with him" In fact the more I speak to Nick, the more I see two completely different people. I can appreciate him for who he is. But who he is, is not what I desire or need.
After lunch, Laura and I headed back to her flat to retrieve the belt I'd left there when I'd stayed over.
Tim arrived home. I decided to be brave. If I sincerely wanted friendship I had to be willing to be active in the persuit of it.
I wandered in and asked about my ellusive belt, he had no idea where it was, but we ended up chatting for quite some time. It was a little strange, a little awkward. But it loosened up once I verbalised what we were both feeling. And it's agreed, it will be awkward for a while, but we'll work our way through and we can hopefully be great friends. in time.
On my way home, I stopped in to see Waje. He'd complained of a sore throat, so I grabbed a box of Butter Menthols and popped my head in to say "G'day".
Planned to meet before Cell group tomorrow and have dinner. I'm cooking for the boy at 6 at his place. Then at 7 the mob will turn up for bible study. It'll be nice to have some old-day flat experiences with my boy waje.
So yes. A little bit of sadness still lingers. But I am blessed. I am glad that I made a decision to be faithful to what I know I needed. God is Good. Thankyou Lord for amazing friends, thankyou for the support you have placed within my life, thankyou for the joy you fill me with, the spirit of life which makes all things bearable in your strength.
Thankyou friends for your prayer and your wisdom.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
A Letter...
I wanted to share this here. A dear friend wrote it a couple of days ago. I thought it was amazing. It is my hope, that it will encourage you too.
"I read your blogs and your page. I was so, so glad to know that you are serving Christ and loving Jesus. I make a distinction not because Christ and Jesus are separate individuals, but because Jesus, the Christ, is both man and God. In the nature of the Man we can approach Him as a brother and fellow sufferer. As Christ, He is literally Lord and Governor over all created things. All at once we approach with serving love and subservient, due fear.
Have you ever thought what the opposite of love is? The quick response may be hate, but hate is better called the enemy of love. The real opposite of love is fear. Love trusts entirely, even blindly, yet fear trusts nothing. That is why scripture says, "perfect love casts out all fear."
Amongst mankind we are not afforded a chance to truly love other humans because men are simply too untrustworthy. Scripture calls us to be wise, and so perfect love is currently impossible. We have reasons to fear.
With Christ comes the opportunity for true love. Jesus commanded us to "love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your mind, and all your strength." What does it mean to love the Lord? The command is not to do a certain number of devotions or prayers, or sing so many songs while sharing Christ with so many people. All of these things are the fruit and evidence of the love, but they are not love itself.
In being commanded to love God you have been called to fulfill one word - trust. Loving God is trusting Him so perfectly that nothing is frightening. As a patient trusts the skilled hands of a surgeon, so much more does perfect love believe in the goodness and ability of our benevolent God. Perfect love expels fear to the point of unbelievable bravery.
What is the evil man, that we should fear him?! What is food, that we should hunger?! When water and air have failed, as I gasp for life, what then do I gasp for? Water and air and food are only the means through which God continues our earthly ministry. When He has taken these things it is not abandoning. Death, suffering, need - these are the vehicles by which we enter eternity! Praise God for the approach of them!
What a mighty God! Before Him we are dust at the foot of an infinite furnace. We are dust that He notices and loves with the infinity of His goodness. After all of this spectacular created world has been removed and when one third of the glorious angels have been forever disgraced into oblivion, I will be preserved. A thousand, ten thousands, uncountable eons away, my once-filthy soul will be a jewel of His keeping. We are the treasures of His grace and the evidence of undeserved love.
Take care. I have prayed for you for a long time."
"I read your blogs and your page. I was so, so glad to know that you are serving Christ and loving Jesus. I make a distinction not because Christ and Jesus are separate individuals, but because Jesus, the Christ, is both man and God. In the nature of the Man we can approach Him as a brother and fellow sufferer. As Christ, He is literally Lord and Governor over all created things. All at once we approach with serving love and subservient, due fear.
Have you ever thought what the opposite of love is? The quick response may be hate, but hate is better called the enemy of love. The real opposite of love is fear. Love trusts entirely, even blindly, yet fear trusts nothing. That is why scripture says, "perfect love casts out all fear."
Amongst mankind we are not afforded a chance to truly love other humans because men are simply too untrustworthy. Scripture calls us to be wise, and so perfect love is currently impossible. We have reasons to fear.
With Christ comes the opportunity for true love. Jesus commanded us to "love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your mind, and all your strength." What does it mean to love the Lord? The command is not to do a certain number of devotions or prayers, or sing so many songs while sharing Christ with so many people. All of these things are the fruit and evidence of the love, but they are not love itself.
In being commanded to love God you have been called to fulfill one word - trust. Loving God is trusting Him so perfectly that nothing is frightening. As a patient trusts the skilled hands of a surgeon, so much more does perfect love believe in the goodness and ability of our benevolent God. Perfect love expels fear to the point of unbelievable bravery.
What is the evil man, that we should fear him?! What is food, that we should hunger?! When water and air have failed, as I gasp for life, what then do I gasp for? Water and air and food are only the means through which God continues our earthly ministry. When He has taken these things it is not abandoning. Death, suffering, need - these are the vehicles by which we enter eternity! Praise God for the approach of them!
What a mighty God! Before Him we are dust at the foot of an infinite furnace. We are dust that He notices and loves with the infinity of His goodness. After all of this spectacular created world has been removed and when one third of the glorious angels have been forever disgraced into oblivion, I will be preserved. A thousand, ten thousands, uncountable eons away, my once-filthy soul will be a jewel of His keeping. We are the treasures of His grace and the evidence of undeserved love.
Take care. I have prayed for you for a long time."
a long winded explanation.
Alright, so I'll flash back a little, to wednesday.
I woke at 10 and walked the hill with Riss. Meant that I got there about an hour and a half early, but as far as I'm concerned, it was worth it - I absolutely adore Riss's company. We were flatties during first year as we were both terrified and alone in the big world. I shared with her one of those rare clickages, which was instant, and I haven't stopped loving her since.
So I ammused myself in the Library, before in my restlessness [sometimes I think I have ADHD. Either that, or worms :P] I decided to take myself for a wander around the Uni. As I wandered out the electronic glass doors, who should I come across but Riss and Lisa. Class had been cancelled and so we headed off for a Coffee. I hate the Cafeteria at Uni - each new year it swarms with a whole new batch of freshers, who smother the place. For the experienced, they know that the best place to head is into the Bistro, next door, up the stairs where you'll find a million couches in a dimly lit, Jazz bar, style setting. Best seats in the Uni.
Headed off to Computers. Which basically entailed sitting and listening to Tony ramble on about how much he loves his Apple Comp. Riss and I shared the extra chair at the table as a footstool and played "Naughts and Crosses", followed by "boxes" and finally "make something out of the squiggle" untill the hour finally ended.
We trecked back down the hill, ammusing ourselves with our ridiculous babblings.
Loz had messaged me the previous night, to meet for Coffee at "Caffiends" which quickly expanded into Nachos as well - I swear, it was the greatest Nachos ever! Big call I know ;)
Turns out there was a bit of a hidden agenda to the invitation. Loz wanted to chat about Tim, her flatmate and friend - who apparantly was interested in getting to know me better. It would be a lie to say that I wasn't flattered. I'd met Tim a number of times, and I appreciated his company greatly, very easy to talk to, warm and friendly. But at the same time something in me lurched. I don't think I can help it. While I've dealt with the issues of my last relationship, my gut still cops it a bit when the thought of another relationship emerges.
Fear, yes there is fear there.
Fear that I'll be hurt again. But perhaps more than that, fear that such concern will pralyse me to great experiences.
I was really glad Loz was there actually, as I was able to talk it through. Came to the conclusion that for now we'll Leave it up in the air and see where it falls. Be cool, calm and collected.
Thus the reason for my last post. Prayer for Wisdom. Yes, Wisdom.
Lord don't let me be a complete idiot.
Headed back to Laura's flat after lunch together, which meant we had to pass my car parked beautifully near the pedestrian crossing. That park represented the first Parrallel-reverse-park I've done since my driving exam. Three moves on this occasion, however only one move during my driving exam :P.
made it back to Loz's flat, which was empty - I'm pretty sure I sighed, I wasn't really looking forward to seeing Tim just yet, out of fear, it may be weird.
Loz and I sat about chatting- oh man, she had me laughing so hard the whole afternoon, so that by the time Suzii [other female flattie] and Tim got home, I was feeling incredibly relaxed and so relieved that there was no weirdness there at all, if anything it was smoother than it's ever been.
Upon looking at her watch and realising it was 7pm. Loz declared that we should go to the 'stro' tonight. Feeling high spirited, we all quickly agreed - drinks were consumed before we headed off in a Taxi. Destination 'Stro' . Arrived just before 10:30, which meant that we got in for free, any later and it would have cost us $10 a pop.
As we wandered about the place I initially whined to Loz that I knew no one here, but as we left the building to join the bustle on the verandah I quickly realised that there were familiar faces everywhere. Caught up with Lisa[last years flatmate, aka mum] and Jo[one of my first year flatmates who I hadn't seen since] Moved along to bump into Sam [Current Flattie] and finally met her boyfriend whom I introduced myself with the statement "So your the boy!" only to have him return with "I'm no boy, I'm a MAN!" ammused me highly. Kept on wandering, untill I came across Pete, ragged him about standing with his friends, which pretty much consisted of 2 cans of Jack Daniels - chatted briefly. Tracked down Laura and Tim, met some freshers. Feeling a little bored, when along came Dan [The Man] and Luke. Chatted to the two of them for close to an hour, utterly consumed by the conversation. Spotted Droopy[one of the security blokes who Bec and I have habitually eaten lunch with on a thursday] He gave me a brief salute. Pete returned and planted his butt on the table beside me. Chatted less briefly this time. pottered across to chat with Justin, before Pete returned again with another can of Jack, having never tried it, I did the shameful Kindy Kid thing and said "Does that taste any good?" to which Pete rolled his eyes before smirking and handing over the can :P.
Before I really knew it, the night was all but over, and they started the rounds, letting us know we needed to head out an exit.
Headed up to the free bus, in the hope there may be a chance they pop us in town. The Bus usually makes a free dash to the colleges - CHEER! the driver says he'll take the college trip, then swing back round and grab the 10 of us and drop us in town. So we wait.
Laura has me in stiches as she bites chunks out of Gum leafs and blows them noisily in an attempt to send them flying as far as possible, while Tim chats away to the 10 security guys standing about. Oh yes, we were defintiely safe. Apparantly they don't all have to stay, but they do, so they get paid for the time they really aren't doing anything other than socialising.
Jump on the bus, Loz and I dash for the back seat. Before Tim encourages us to sit closer to the front so the bus driver can be told where to drop us.
Loz immediately gets hit on by a 40-something bloke, who had drunk enough that evening to believe her when she stated that her name was Audrey Hepburn.
We hop off at the Kilda, Loz's admirer hops off one stop after us and we can hear him yelling "AUDREY!" right up till we walk through the flat door. Loz definitely made an impression.
We head in, all with the munchies big time, cook up some Bacon, eggs, sausages and pies...OH MY GOODNESS, was that good or what!
Finally head to bed at around 6am, shared the double. Great matress, slept like a baby. Woke at around 8am and decided that I'd skip my non-compulsory subjects for the day, which meant I lounged around in bed till close to 1pm
Loz and I convinced Tim to join us for lunch/afternoon tea/dinner at Caffeinds... fun.
Here's my issue. I do like Tim.
He's asked me to come over tomorrow night for a bit of a chat. Which will be good. A chance to sort some idea's about each other.
We'll see. If anything, right now, I see Tim being a great friend. Perhaps not boyfriend material. But a great friend no less.
Prayer is always, always appreciated.
I woke at 10 and walked the hill with Riss. Meant that I got there about an hour and a half early, but as far as I'm concerned, it was worth it - I absolutely adore Riss's company. We were flatties during first year as we were both terrified and alone in the big world. I shared with her one of those rare clickages, which was instant, and I haven't stopped loving her since.
So I ammused myself in the Library, before in my restlessness [sometimes I think I have ADHD. Either that, or worms :P] I decided to take myself for a wander around the Uni. As I wandered out the electronic glass doors, who should I come across but Riss and Lisa. Class had been cancelled and so we headed off for a Coffee. I hate the Cafeteria at Uni - each new year it swarms with a whole new batch of freshers, who smother the place. For the experienced, they know that the best place to head is into the Bistro, next door, up the stairs where you'll find a million couches in a dimly lit, Jazz bar, style setting. Best seats in the Uni.
Headed off to Computers. Which basically entailed sitting and listening to Tony ramble on about how much he loves his Apple Comp. Riss and I shared the extra chair at the table as a footstool and played "Naughts and Crosses", followed by "boxes" and finally "make something out of the squiggle" untill the hour finally ended.
We trecked back down the hill, ammusing ourselves with our ridiculous babblings.
Loz had messaged me the previous night, to meet for Coffee at "Caffiends" which quickly expanded into Nachos as well - I swear, it was the greatest Nachos ever! Big call I know ;)
Turns out there was a bit of a hidden agenda to the invitation. Loz wanted to chat about Tim, her flatmate and friend - who apparantly was interested in getting to know me better. It would be a lie to say that I wasn't flattered. I'd met Tim a number of times, and I appreciated his company greatly, very easy to talk to, warm and friendly. But at the same time something in me lurched. I don't think I can help it. While I've dealt with the issues of my last relationship, my gut still cops it a bit when the thought of another relationship emerges.
Fear, yes there is fear there.
Fear that I'll be hurt again. But perhaps more than that, fear that such concern will pralyse me to great experiences.
I was really glad Loz was there actually, as I was able to talk it through. Came to the conclusion that for now we'll Leave it up in the air and see where it falls. Be cool, calm and collected.
Thus the reason for my last post. Prayer for Wisdom. Yes, Wisdom.
Lord don't let me be a complete idiot.
Headed back to Laura's flat after lunch together, which meant we had to pass my car parked beautifully near the pedestrian crossing. That park represented the first Parrallel-reverse-park I've done since my driving exam. Three moves on this occasion, however only one move during my driving exam :P.
made it back to Loz's flat, which was empty - I'm pretty sure I sighed, I wasn't really looking forward to seeing Tim just yet, out of fear, it may be weird.
Loz and I sat about chatting- oh man, she had me laughing so hard the whole afternoon, so that by the time Suzii [other female flattie] and Tim got home, I was feeling incredibly relaxed and so relieved that there was no weirdness there at all, if anything it was smoother than it's ever been.
Upon looking at her watch and realising it was 7pm. Loz declared that we should go to the 'stro' tonight. Feeling high spirited, we all quickly agreed - drinks were consumed before we headed off in a Taxi. Destination 'Stro' . Arrived just before 10:30, which meant that we got in for free, any later and it would have cost us $10 a pop.
As we wandered about the place I initially whined to Loz that I knew no one here, but as we left the building to join the bustle on the verandah I quickly realised that there were familiar faces everywhere. Caught up with Lisa[last years flatmate, aka mum] and Jo[one of my first year flatmates who I hadn't seen since] Moved along to bump into Sam [Current Flattie] and finally met her boyfriend whom I introduced myself with the statement "So your the boy!" only to have him return with "I'm no boy, I'm a MAN!" ammused me highly. Kept on wandering, untill I came across Pete, ragged him about standing with his friends, which pretty much consisted of 2 cans of Jack Daniels - chatted briefly. Tracked down Laura and Tim, met some freshers. Feeling a little bored, when along came Dan [The Man] and Luke. Chatted to the two of them for close to an hour, utterly consumed by the conversation. Spotted Droopy[one of the security blokes who Bec and I have habitually eaten lunch with on a thursday] He gave me a brief salute. Pete returned and planted his butt on the table beside me. Chatted less briefly this time. pottered across to chat with Justin, before Pete returned again with another can of Jack, having never tried it, I did the shameful Kindy Kid thing and said "Does that taste any good?" to which Pete rolled his eyes before smirking and handing over the can :P.
Before I really knew it, the night was all but over, and they started the rounds, letting us know we needed to head out an exit.
Headed up to the free bus, in the hope there may be a chance they pop us in town. The Bus usually makes a free dash to the colleges - CHEER! the driver says he'll take the college trip, then swing back round and grab the 10 of us and drop us in town. So we wait.
Laura has me in stiches as she bites chunks out of Gum leafs and blows them noisily in an attempt to send them flying as far as possible, while Tim chats away to the 10 security guys standing about. Oh yes, we were defintiely safe. Apparantly they don't all have to stay, but they do, so they get paid for the time they really aren't doing anything other than socialising.
Jump on the bus, Loz and I dash for the back seat. Before Tim encourages us to sit closer to the front so the bus driver can be told where to drop us.
Loz immediately gets hit on by a 40-something bloke, who had drunk enough that evening to believe her when she stated that her name was Audrey Hepburn.
We hop off at the Kilda, Loz's admirer hops off one stop after us and we can hear him yelling "AUDREY!" right up till we walk through the flat door. Loz definitely made an impression.
We head in, all with the munchies big time, cook up some Bacon, eggs, sausages and pies...OH MY GOODNESS, was that good or what!
Finally head to bed at around 6am, shared the double. Great matress, slept like a baby. Woke at around 8am and decided that I'd skip my non-compulsory subjects for the day, which meant I lounged around in bed till close to 1pm
Loz and I convinced Tim to join us for lunch/afternoon tea/dinner at Caffeinds... fun.
Here's my issue. I do like Tim.
He's asked me to come over tomorrow night for a bit of a chat. Which will be good. A chance to sort some idea's about each other.
We'll see. If anything, right now, I see Tim being a great friend. Perhaps not boyfriend material. But a great friend no less.
Prayer is always, always appreciated.
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
churnings.
Please pray.
Wisdom...
I could use wisdom in a situation which has arisen.
I won't go into it now. But I could really use prayer. I want to handle this the best way I can. Gurard my heart.
eeeeerg.
how fun is being mature?! not always great
I will ellaborate some time, but while I sort it myself, your prayers would be adored.
Thanks champs.
Wisdom...
I could use wisdom in a situation which has arisen.
I won't go into it now. But I could really use prayer. I want to handle this the best way I can. Gurard my heart.
eeeeerg.
how fun is being mature?! not always great
I will ellaborate some time, but while I sort it myself, your prayers would be adored.
Thanks champs.
Monday, March 13, 2006
weekend adventures
Busy Busy Busy!
Saturday I headed out to Garra Gorge with Tess, Laura, Nick, [big]Dave and Scotty. I had never been anywhere near the place, however since I'm a fan of a good roadie decided it was worth the treck. Forming our gender alianses Nick drove one car with Scotty and Dave, while I drove the other with Laura and Tess. Not knowing the way myself, I was completely at the mercy of the boys car, as we followed them through the streets of Armidale, out through the bush, until finally we came upon a small BBQ area about 30 minutes out of town.
We cooked up some snogs, with the boys building impressive salads. As we were turning on the BBQ we noticed a sign which read "Only to be used if a responsible adult is present" the laughs began as we all argued over who should be responsible, of course none of us wanted to be. If age was the deciding factor then there is little doubt Scotty or Big Dave would take the role, as both are 35, however after logic was considered, they were probably the biggest pair of goofballs in the place, and so the youngest member of the party, Laura [20, that day in fact!] was voted Leader [aka responsible adult] for the day.
So we ate and chatted, about Tattoos, drop bears, Japanese gameshows and vomitting inside covered facial moterbike helmets while riding at 120kms/hr, among other things.
At one point, Tess headed to the toilet. Scotty had us all in hysterics as he made eerily realistic wild pig squeals while screaming "look-out!!" outside the toilet. By the time Tess emerged, rather timidly, she looked petrified! we were all grabbing our stomachs as we rolled about in laughter.
After the snogs and salad, I made a dash to the car and grabbed the cake I'd stashed in the back, which I brought back and surprised Laura with. We sang a hilariously off-key, opera version of Happy birthday, then gorged ourselves on cake.
Eventually we decided to check out the gorge, with the intention of making it up to blue hole, about 5 minutes up the river; 5 minutes that it, when using the designated track. We however decided fairly quickly, that the track was for the city slickers, and so headed down into the gorge. I cannot even begin to describe how awesome it was. I love this sort of adventure! we were climbing all over rocks, down into crevaces, up near vertical dirt walls! oh it was fantastic!
It is here that I impress you with the fact that I did it all in my flip-flops, oh yes! hardcore! :P
The rest of the team was highly impressed, as I didn't slip or fall once, and stayed with the pack the entire time.
At some point, we split in half, Laura, Dave and Scotty headed one way, while Tess, Nick and I headed another. Discovering that there was no other way to go, we headed back up to the track and walked our way back to the bridge which marked the very beginning of the walk. As the track was only big enough to walk single file, we amused ourselves by singing "Hi-Ho, Hi-Ho it's off to work we go!" with Tess infront, myself in the middle and Nick behind me. Today was the day for random conversation, as Nick told the story of a friend who had eaten "Bush Oysters" completely unaware that they are in fact Sheeps testicles. OH man, I thought it was awesome, Tess was dry-heaving in front of me as I admitted that I'm actually interested in trying some of those things, just to see what they taste like, and to actually have a valid opinion.
We made it back to the Bridge, with no sign of the other team [HA HA, WE WON!]
I was straight in the water, attempting to skim rocks. Nick had me convinced he was impressed with my lousy 2 skims, however eventually stood, and skimmed his 4 times... :P
Eventually the other team rocked up, and pretty quick I had convinced Laura to take her shoes off and get in the water with me. This was quickly followed by throwing rocks at Dave, designed to land just in front and splash up all over him. It continued back and forth for a couple of minutes, before a full- on water fight errupted, with everyone splashing with a complete abandonment of co-ordination. The 3 of us walked away drenched to the bone. What a great day.
The boys decided that us girls should lead the way home, which we did, even forcing the boys to slow down as we passed the free-running cattle, inches from the road, in order to 'moo' loudly at them. The boys were hesitant to begin with, but got into it within a short time. some of the cows even came right up to the window, which had the boys yelling "Okay lets go, I think these sheila's are finding us a little too attractive, who knows what we're saying to them right now!!"
So we made it back to church, hung around, had a few drinks, before we headed off again.
I dropped Laura home - vowing to see her in an hour for dinner at the "Mung Hing" for her birthday. On my way I decided to pop in and see Wae Jae. Nick had asked me earlier in the day whether I knew if anything was up with Waje because he seemed upset about something.
He was.
I won't go into it now, but I could relate in a way, we chatted for a while, before I managed to convince him to come out for Laura's tonight, as sitting around in his room moping would only make him feel worse. He resisted untill I left to get ready. However upon my return to see if he was coming, he was completely dressed and ready to go.
Lauras was great. Met 5 of her other friends, who were a hoot to get along with. After about an hour and a half, we decided to continue the celebrations over at the Newie. However I grabbed Wae Jae and Laura and we shot across to Wright Village first. I promised Pete I would make an appearance at his bash at his flat. It was 9pm by the time we rocked up and there was absolutely no sign of anyone at Petes, checked with Scotty [different one from Gara Gorge - this was Scotty my RL and buddy from across the hall] he didn't go, so he had no idea. decided to shaft the party and head out instead. Laura and I had been into the wine, so Scotty offered his services as chauffer - what a leader huh!
Waje headed home, while Laura and I headed to the Newie. No sign of Tim, KC or Kim, so we headed down to the Kilda, then across to Tatts, over to the Wicklo, past Fusion, untill finally heading back to the Newie in a final attempt to find them. Just as we walked in the door, we stepped right into the three of them. finally!
KC and Kim headed off pretty quickly, while Tim stayed around with Laura and I. We managed to find ourselves a nice possy before things started getting really busy. We set each other the challenge for the night. Who could make the most people stop and join our little gathering around the table, the big challenge was we had to entertain them enough that they would remain for the rest of the evening. By the end of the night we had about15 people around our humble table. Clare, Alison and Bree were my main chat buddies for the evening. Never met them before, but enjoyed their company thoroughly. At one point there were no seats anywhere, which left Tim being a gentlman of sorts and offering his lap. Undeterred by the fact that should I sit on him, he would die. I did sit, and suprisingly, he didn't die :P
Scored myself a free drink at the bar form another girl, all for giving her boyfriend a hug. Feel the luuuurve.
At about 3 we headed back to Lauras place, we crashed in her room, her having a futon proved incredibly handy.
Woke up at around 11am and stumbled out into the kitchen to find Tim busy cooking Bacon and Eggs, Laura and I made a scene of shock with the female population that this obvious snag was single. Had a shower, then Laura lent me a change of clothes, which included her Drummond and Smith College Polo. We spent the rest of the day watching MASH - what a great show!!
Before I headed back, copped it big time from everyone in my flat, ragging me for wearing a college shirt in Wrights Village :P twas funny!
Headed along to night service at Church. Left Cafe` at around 10pm, Drove the girls home - recieved an invitation from Chavon for cocktails at her place next friday. As I'm headed back with Waje he decides he doesn't want to head home, so we drive all over Armi chatting about everything. Eventually we get onto the subject of what he's struggling with currently. I park outside his place and we talked and talked untill 1am. It was good to be able to chat together as we did when he was in the flat last year. It was nice to know that the level of transparancy is still very much there.
I arrived back at the flat, sorted my laundry and managed to roll into bed at 2:30am.
What a fantasitc weekend it has been. I'm blessed, incredibly blessed.
Saturday I headed out to Garra Gorge with Tess, Laura, Nick, [big]Dave and Scotty. I had never been anywhere near the place, however since I'm a fan of a good roadie decided it was worth the treck. Forming our gender alianses Nick drove one car with Scotty and Dave, while I drove the other with Laura and Tess. Not knowing the way myself, I was completely at the mercy of the boys car, as we followed them through the streets of Armidale, out through the bush, until finally we came upon a small BBQ area about 30 minutes out of town.
We cooked up some snogs, with the boys building impressive salads. As we were turning on the BBQ we noticed a sign which read "Only to be used if a responsible adult is present" the laughs began as we all argued over who should be responsible, of course none of us wanted to be. If age was the deciding factor then there is little doubt Scotty or Big Dave would take the role, as both are 35, however after logic was considered, they were probably the biggest pair of goofballs in the place, and so the youngest member of the party, Laura [20, that day in fact!] was voted Leader [aka responsible adult] for the day.
So we ate and chatted, about Tattoos, drop bears, Japanese gameshows and vomitting inside covered facial moterbike helmets while riding at 120kms/hr, among other things.
At one point, Tess headed to the toilet. Scotty had us all in hysterics as he made eerily realistic wild pig squeals while screaming "look-out!!" outside the toilet. By the time Tess emerged, rather timidly, she looked petrified! we were all grabbing our stomachs as we rolled about in laughter.
After the snogs and salad, I made a dash to the car and grabbed the cake I'd stashed in the back, which I brought back and surprised Laura with. We sang a hilariously off-key, opera version of Happy birthday, then gorged ourselves on cake.
Eventually we decided to check out the gorge, with the intention of making it up to blue hole, about 5 minutes up the river; 5 minutes that it, when using the designated track. We however decided fairly quickly, that the track was for the city slickers, and so headed down into the gorge. I cannot even begin to describe how awesome it was. I love this sort of adventure! we were climbing all over rocks, down into crevaces, up near vertical dirt walls! oh it was fantastic!
It is here that I impress you with the fact that I did it all in my flip-flops, oh yes! hardcore! :P
The rest of the team was highly impressed, as I didn't slip or fall once, and stayed with the pack the entire time.
At some point, we split in half, Laura, Dave and Scotty headed one way, while Tess, Nick and I headed another. Discovering that there was no other way to go, we headed back up to the track and walked our way back to the bridge which marked the very beginning of the walk. As the track was only big enough to walk single file, we amused ourselves by singing "Hi-Ho, Hi-Ho it's off to work we go!" with Tess infront, myself in the middle and Nick behind me. Today was the day for random conversation, as Nick told the story of a friend who had eaten "Bush Oysters" completely unaware that they are in fact Sheeps testicles. OH man, I thought it was awesome, Tess was dry-heaving in front of me as I admitted that I'm actually interested in trying some of those things, just to see what they taste like, and to actually have a valid opinion.
We made it back to the Bridge, with no sign of the other team [HA HA, WE WON!]
I was straight in the water, attempting to skim rocks. Nick had me convinced he was impressed with my lousy 2 skims, however eventually stood, and skimmed his 4 times... :P
Eventually the other team rocked up, and pretty quick I had convinced Laura to take her shoes off and get in the water with me. This was quickly followed by throwing rocks at Dave, designed to land just in front and splash up all over him. It continued back and forth for a couple of minutes, before a full- on water fight errupted, with everyone splashing with a complete abandonment of co-ordination. The 3 of us walked away drenched to the bone. What a great day.
The boys decided that us girls should lead the way home, which we did, even forcing the boys to slow down as we passed the free-running cattle, inches from the road, in order to 'moo' loudly at them. The boys were hesitant to begin with, but got into it within a short time. some of the cows even came right up to the window, which had the boys yelling "Okay lets go, I think these sheila's are finding us a little too attractive, who knows what we're saying to them right now!!"
So we made it back to church, hung around, had a few drinks, before we headed off again.
I dropped Laura home - vowing to see her in an hour for dinner at the "Mung Hing" for her birthday. On my way I decided to pop in and see Wae Jae. Nick had asked me earlier in the day whether I knew if anything was up with Waje because he seemed upset about something.
He was.
I won't go into it now, but I could relate in a way, we chatted for a while, before I managed to convince him to come out for Laura's tonight, as sitting around in his room moping would only make him feel worse. He resisted untill I left to get ready. However upon my return to see if he was coming, he was completely dressed and ready to go.
Lauras was great. Met 5 of her other friends, who were a hoot to get along with. After about an hour and a half, we decided to continue the celebrations over at the Newie. However I grabbed Wae Jae and Laura and we shot across to Wright Village first. I promised Pete I would make an appearance at his bash at his flat. It was 9pm by the time we rocked up and there was absolutely no sign of anyone at Petes, checked with Scotty [different one from Gara Gorge - this was Scotty my RL and buddy from across the hall] he didn't go, so he had no idea. decided to shaft the party and head out instead. Laura and I had been into the wine, so Scotty offered his services as chauffer - what a leader huh!
Waje headed home, while Laura and I headed to the Newie. No sign of Tim, KC or Kim, so we headed down to the Kilda, then across to Tatts, over to the Wicklo, past Fusion, untill finally heading back to the Newie in a final attempt to find them. Just as we walked in the door, we stepped right into the three of them. finally!
KC and Kim headed off pretty quickly, while Tim stayed around with Laura and I. We managed to find ourselves a nice possy before things started getting really busy. We set each other the challenge for the night. Who could make the most people stop and join our little gathering around the table, the big challenge was we had to entertain them enough that they would remain for the rest of the evening. By the end of the night we had about15 people around our humble table. Clare, Alison and Bree were my main chat buddies for the evening. Never met them before, but enjoyed their company thoroughly. At one point there were no seats anywhere, which left Tim being a gentlman of sorts and offering his lap. Undeterred by the fact that should I sit on him, he would die. I did sit, and suprisingly, he didn't die :P
Scored myself a free drink at the bar form another girl, all for giving her boyfriend a hug. Feel the luuuurve.
At about 3 we headed back to Lauras place, we crashed in her room, her having a futon proved incredibly handy.
Woke up at around 11am and stumbled out into the kitchen to find Tim busy cooking Bacon and Eggs, Laura and I made a scene of shock with the female population that this obvious snag was single. Had a shower, then Laura lent me a change of clothes, which included her Drummond and Smith College Polo. We spent the rest of the day watching MASH - what a great show!!
Before I headed back, copped it big time from everyone in my flat, ragging me for wearing a college shirt in Wrights Village :P twas funny!
Headed along to night service at Church. Left Cafe` at around 10pm, Drove the girls home - recieved an invitation from Chavon for cocktails at her place next friday. As I'm headed back with Waje he decides he doesn't want to head home, so we drive all over Armi chatting about everything. Eventually we get onto the subject of what he's struggling with currently. I park outside his place and we talked and talked untill 1am. It was good to be able to chat together as we did when he was in the flat last year. It was nice to know that the level of transparancy is still very much there.
I arrived back at the flat, sorted my laundry and managed to roll into bed at 2:30am.
What a fantasitc weekend it has been. I'm blessed, incredibly blessed.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
HA!
Another day down for the week. Geez that makes it sound as though lifes been tough. It hasn't, I'm just knackered at the end of this fine tuesday.
Started a new course, EDCX390, action research within the classroom - about as hideous as it sounds, however considering It will be impossible to receive my degree without having participated in some sort of research while on prac, I am forced to fake half interest :P.
I got completely lost and had no idea where my class was, so I sat in the entry hall and waited till a familiar face made an appearance. In waltzed Chloe, she didn't have a clue either, so we both laughed our way down the halls till we stumbled upon the room - and early too, Hoorah for fools!
survived the two hours of the smallest print on an overhead possible, and bolted the second he said we could have a 10 minute early mark.
Just arrived in the door and Scott started whinging to me that he'd been left in the flat all alone all day and wanted to hang out. Right on the money, my phone rings and I ooze a "see ya!" as I bolt up the hall to answer it. It was Riss, as she's telling me about her fall off the last step and twisting her ankle, Scott comes to stand in the doorway with the mopiest face I've ever seen, so I let him sit on my bed while I finished my chat with Riss.
Had a flat meeting, was only 3/8 of us there...highly amusing, so we decided to make all the important decisions in our favour. Everyone'll be there next time :P.
Headed straight off from the flat meeting to bible study over at Nicks. Hugely excited, Riss came up and asked if she could join the mob of us. Riss has always been anti-church since some bad experiences as a kid. I'd been putting invitations out there for years, glad she accepted one :D
The topic ended up being highly highly appropriate for Riss.
Poor Nick!! He was the only male in the place. With the rest of us, 8 girls. I saw him wearing that look and threw in a "You can feel the testosterone being sucked right out of you Nick!" to which he responded "Where are all the blokes!...I bet you girls want to know that too!"
Nick headed straight off to work after we finished and the rest of us gals headed over to Macca's, as Rhen pulled up beside me, she signaled for me to wind down the window "Check it out Jess, Check out the song..." not bad not bad at all. "Oh yeah I responded, I reckon we in this car have got the better stuff" as I turned my stereo up...the look on rhens face was priceless as she squealed "If your any sort of friend Jess, you are so lending me that CD"
For the next hour we hung around in Macs chatting. I had rhen opposite me, and we had each other in stitches the whole time, it was fantastic!
We ammused ourselves highly when we waited till everyone had just arrived back to the table with their food and sat to begin, rhen rose to her feet and said with a completely straight face "Sorry guys, I just got a really important phone call and have to go, either you come with me now, or Jess is going to take two car loads to get you all home" Fless, Shavon and Tess started stuffing the food into themselves, and frantically grabbing all their stuff - till rhen and I couldn't contain our laughter any longer. The sight of Tess with ice cream all over her face, the paniced expression on Fless, Shavon spilling the entire contents of her bag across the floor in her rush, till Tess sneezed while hurridly eating her icecream and shot it out her nose all over the table. Rhen and I were grabbing our stomachs with one hand, each other with the other as we laughed till we cried, and added, "sit down guys, settle, settle, we've still got some time yet" After the anger subsided everyone was laughing about it.
And it finally happened. As we stood to leave and begin sorting who would be going in what car, without even thinking I asked "Alright, who's riding in the Stallion?" and so it is a name is born. Though I think 'the Stallion' shall be her fighting name, otherwise she shall be affectionately known as 'Wackner'.
Laura was insisting she would walk, I insisted I drove her. So I dropped her infront of her house, right as a couple of guys walked past - obviously fascinated by the sight of a car full of girls. So I honked them waved, after recovering from the startle they half jogged down the street glancing back with CHeeky grins, I half expected what was coming. Sat and made sure Laura got inside alright, then pulled out from the kerb and right on time the guys dropped their pants and gave us a full view of their reflective moons.
Riss missed the whole thing as she chased a fallen pen under her seat. Yet sat up suddenly as I laughed hysterically, in which time the guys had pulled their pants back up and stood on the corner waving goofily as we passed. what is it with College boys, their butts seem to require a lot more fresh air than most of the rest of us.
As we made our way back to the flats, I had a chat to Riss about the bible study. She said she wasn't sure whether she'd come next week, but she'd think about it. She raised that she wasn't altogether comfortable with the out-loud prayer. I was able to go into how it was something which took time for me to develop too, but that the pressure eased once I allowed myself to be more real with God, and not feel as though I needed to be eloquent or poetic when I pray, just chat to God like I would a close friend. She smiled at that and I'm hoping she'll make another appearance. Seeds are being planted and I only pray that God will nurture those in time.
So again, the end of another busy busy day! All fun.
If you had told me during first year that I would grow to love Armidale I probably would have slapped you hard. But now believe it or not, it's going to be hard to leave here at the end of the year. Of course if I do leave ;).
only time will tell where I shall be next year.
Started a new course, EDCX390, action research within the classroom - about as hideous as it sounds, however considering It will be impossible to receive my degree without having participated in some sort of research while on prac, I am forced to fake half interest :P.
I got completely lost and had no idea where my class was, so I sat in the entry hall and waited till a familiar face made an appearance. In waltzed Chloe, she didn't have a clue either, so we both laughed our way down the halls till we stumbled upon the room - and early too, Hoorah for fools!
survived the two hours of the smallest print on an overhead possible, and bolted the second he said we could have a 10 minute early mark.
Just arrived in the door and Scott started whinging to me that he'd been left in the flat all alone all day and wanted to hang out. Right on the money, my phone rings and I ooze a "see ya!" as I bolt up the hall to answer it. It was Riss, as she's telling me about her fall off the last step and twisting her ankle, Scott comes to stand in the doorway with the mopiest face I've ever seen, so I let him sit on my bed while I finished my chat with Riss.
Had a flat meeting, was only 3/8 of us there...highly amusing, so we decided to make all the important decisions in our favour. Everyone'll be there next time :P.
Headed straight off from the flat meeting to bible study over at Nicks. Hugely excited, Riss came up and asked if she could join the mob of us. Riss has always been anti-church since some bad experiences as a kid. I'd been putting invitations out there for years, glad she accepted one :D
The topic ended up being highly highly appropriate for Riss.
Poor Nick!! He was the only male in the place. With the rest of us, 8 girls. I saw him wearing that look and threw in a "You can feel the testosterone being sucked right out of you Nick!" to which he responded "Where are all the blokes!...I bet you girls want to know that too!"
Nick headed straight off to work after we finished and the rest of us gals headed over to Macca's, as Rhen pulled up beside me, she signaled for me to wind down the window "Check it out Jess, Check out the song..." not bad not bad at all. "Oh yeah I responded, I reckon we in this car have got the better stuff" as I turned my stereo up...the look on rhens face was priceless as she squealed "If your any sort of friend Jess, you are so lending me that CD"
For the next hour we hung around in Macs chatting. I had rhen opposite me, and we had each other in stitches the whole time, it was fantastic!
We ammused ourselves highly when we waited till everyone had just arrived back to the table with their food and sat to begin, rhen rose to her feet and said with a completely straight face "Sorry guys, I just got a really important phone call and have to go, either you come with me now, or Jess is going to take two car loads to get you all home" Fless, Shavon and Tess started stuffing the food into themselves, and frantically grabbing all their stuff - till rhen and I couldn't contain our laughter any longer. The sight of Tess with ice cream all over her face, the paniced expression on Fless, Shavon spilling the entire contents of her bag across the floor in her rush, till Tess sneezed while hurridly eating her icecream and shot it out her nose all over the table. Rhen and I were grabbing our stomachs with one hand, each other with the other as we laughed till we cried, and added, "sit down guys, settle, settle, we've still got some time yet" After the anger subsided everyone was laughing about it.
And it finally happened. As we stood to leave and begin sorting who would be going in what car, without even thinking I asked "Alright, who's riding in the Stallion?" and so it is a name is born. Though I think 'the Stallion' shall be her fighting name, otherwise she shall be affectionately known as 'Wackner'.
Laura was insisting she would walk, I insisted I drove her. So I dropped her infront of her house, right as a couple of guys walked past - obviously fascinated by the sight of a car full of girls. So I honked them waved, after recovering from the startle they half jogged down the street glancing back with CHeeky grins, I half expected what was coming. Sat and made sure Laura got inside alright, then pulled out from the kerb and right on time the guys dropped their pants and gave us a full view of their reflective moons.
Riss missed the whole thing as she chased a fallen pen under her seat. Yet sat up suddenly as I laughed hysterically, in which time the guys had pulled their pants back up and stood on the corner waving goofily as we passed. what is it with College boys, their butts seem to require a lot more fresh air than most of the rest of us.
As we made our way back to the flats, I had a chat to Riss about the bible study. She said she wasn't sure whether she'd come next week, but she'd think about it. She raised that she wasn't altogether comfortable with the out-loud prayer. I was able to go into how it was something which took time for me to develop too, but that the pressure eased once I allowed myself to be more real with God, and not feel as though I needed to be eloquent or poetic when I pray, just chat to God like I would a close friend. She smiled at that and I'm hoping she'll make another appearance. Seeds are being planted and I only pray that God will nurture those in time.
So again, the end of another busy busy day! All fun.
If you had told me during first year that I would grow to love Armidale I probably would have slapped you hard. But now believe it or not, it's going to be hard to leave here at the end of the year. Of course if I do leave ;).
only time will tell where I shall be next year.
Sunday, March 05, 2006
hum-drum...YIPEE!
ahh, what a fantastic night.
Today was fairly so-so.
Got up, sat staring into space for about 15 minutes, got ready and headed to 10am church.
I found myself a nice pozy about second row back, and sat. Switched off my mobile, took a sip of water and no sign on any of the usual gang. Said some howdies to Colin and Nicole, the always lovely Bron, threw a smile at the heavily pregnant Kez who was well and truely engulfed in a conversation about Babies, which I felt in no way compelled to participate.
I'm not an incredibly outgoing person in everyday life. But every so often I feel the urge to break out of what is considered 'normal Jess behaviour' and act more 'me' amongst strangers. I spotted a couple of girls who I'd never seen at church before and decided to head over and say Howdy. They were lovely, Ashley and Laura were there names, one was a Primary education student [yes we are taking over the world] and the other was studying business. I babbled ridiculously about burning my ear on my curling iron that morning, then spilling my water bottle all over my lap while drink-driving. HAHA! they at least thought I was funny ;) I do my best to make newbies to the church feel welcome, after all, I realise I probably wouldn't have stayed here if the delightful Bron hadn't offered me the same welcome.
I invited Ashley and Laura over to my pew during the service and we chatted for a short time afterwards.
I wandered out to the kitchen to grab a cuppa, though at the last minute decided to go a tea, all week Ive been heading out to coffee with a different buddy each day, so I've decided thats enough coffee for a while. However the second I turned around from dipping my tea-bag
there was Bron's big grin, accompanied with a big hug and we made a date to grab [*sigh*] more coffee :P.
I wandered about the place, introduced myself to a few more people I didn't recognise [ alot of newbies come in when your gone for 3 months] At 12:30 we had another 'Electrolight' meeting. A Youth Conference run by my church, this is only the 2nd year that we've held it and the first year that I've actually been a part of it. Curently I am the sole member of the Creative Design team. Korrine and Donna were my co-pilots, however both have since moved interstate and thus I'm left somewhat alone in the endevour. Kez is awesome and incredibly supportive and keen to be my assistant in anything I see fit. It's all fairly exciting, and it's nice to be able to apply my arty tendencies to something with such incredible potential for good.
I headed back to the flats and straight across to Rissas place. She basically said that there was no way I would be leaving her place untill I'd watched "Much Ado about nothing" [or something similar] based on a shakespearian play. It was highly enjoyable, and the characters made me laugh. I love the language of shakespear!
Left Rissas place at around 5:30. Headed back to my room, got changed into something more casual and warmer. Sat of my bed for about fifteen minutes and read more of "Memoirs of a Geisha" I'm really starting to get into it now, over the halfway mark. The culture is incredibly fascinating, and I envy her glamorous attire - of course there are many things about her lifestyle I don't envy, but the book is fantastic! I'm so glad I decided to read it before I see the film.
Headed to the night service at church. Once again I didn't see the usual mob. Apparantly alot of people were out of town for the weekend, or didn't want to come out due to the horrid weather. I decided that I would embrace the opportunity to sit by myself, completely undistracted by the people around me. It's probably one of my favourite things to do at church, sometimes I'll deliberately sit away from all my girls for the sole purpose of spending some quite time undistracted. It's always sad when some of them can't seem to grasp my reasons. But most of the time they relate fairly well.
On my way out to Cafe` I spotted another newbie, I must have been feeling fairly comfortable in my own skin today, because I headed over to say hello to her. Crystal was this lovely ladies name, though she couldn't hang about, she had to head off for duties at the PLC campus. But it was a pleasure all the same, and we looked forward to seeing each other next sunday night.
Grabbed some Chicken nuggets out the back of the church Cafe` and sat with Clancy and Tess, chatting about all sorts of things we encountered during the week. What I was really hanging out for was Wae-Jae. I'd been over to his place a couple of days before with Laura and Charrissa, which meant that I really hadn't had the the opportunity to chat one-on-one with the boy. Life is very different without him living right next door, I miss my brother.
He had headed out the front for prayer after the service, and so till around 9pm he was chatting with John about whatever it was.
Tess had asked Clancy and I to head outside for a quick chat. Apparantly a conversation with a male in church had left her feeling rather uncomfortable. Knowing this particular male, and going by the body language she had described it wasn't anything out of the norm for him. However we spent a bit of time chatting to Tess about her discomfort being valid, however sometimes we have to consider things in light of who we know people to be. One of the issues Tess had was that as he said goodbye, he gave her a friendly whack on the shoulder and said "See Ya Buddy!" He does the same thing to me, and I love it. However Tess is more conservative and generally quite aware of personal space and contact issues - which isn't a bad thing, it just makes her different, as we all are. I encouraged her to watch for consistencies in the behaviour of people in order to determine whether they are 'coming on to you' or not,[did someone say "Josh Harris Sermon"? :P] had she done this with Roger, as I'm sure she will now, she'll discover that he is just a friendly bloke, not sleazy at all. Clancy and I prayed about the whole shibang with Tess and I hope she was feeling better.
Tess and Clancy headed off, but I decided to hang around, in a final desperate attempt to knab a bit of Waje time. I wandered up to the main Church hall to find Waje in there alone, packing up the microphones. He was on the sound Desk tonight, and so I wandered up the aisle and chatted away with the boy as we attempted to find all the light switches. He rode his bike over, and so I managed to convince him to let me give him a ride home - due to the rain, but also so we could at least chat for a little while in the car. After cramming the bike in the back, Waje decided he was hungry, so we headed across to Hungry Jacks, grabbed some food and a booth, and sat and chatted for what felt like the best hour in a long time. Realising it was 10:30pm we decided it was time to go, I have no classes tomorrow, but Waje had to work. So I dropped him back at his place and we did our won't-die joke. We both put on this deliberate awkward silence, which we replicate even with other people in the car. It originally came out of our muckings that when 2 people of opposite genders end the night is there always that awkward, 'do I give them a kiss goodnight?' And so we still do it to this day, which other people in the car find weird, coz they don't have a clue why the awkwards silence starts, or what it means.
I adore the fact that WaeJae and I have the sort of friendship where romantic's aren't an issue,[even though we still get those 'looks' from people, who just don't get it] I love that we can be completely candid about relational issues and get the low-down on the opposite gender, while supporting each other in our quests for love :P. He's a fantastic brother. Once we tired of our awkward silence joke, he climbed out, grabbed his bike and we both vowed to get together for more fun times, just-like-old-times-in-the-flat, soon. I miss my boy.
And so, I headed back to the flat. Had a quick chat with Scott across the hall, he's one of the RA's this year [Resident Assistant] after about 5 minutes of chatting his phone started buzzing with some first year complaining that they had locked their keys in their room. HAHA! poor Scott, it was the 5th one tonight. And so here I am, at the end of a day which started out fairly ok yet turned out great!
I am blessed here in Armidale! Thankyou Lord.
Though ever since I've been back 5 people have said "You look Different, Jess" I think it's a compliment. At least I hope so.
Today was fairly so-so.
Got up, sat staring into space for about 15 minutes, got ready and headed to 10am church.
I found myself a nice pozy about second row back, and sat. Switched off my mobile, took a sip of water and no sign on any of the usual gang. Said some howdies to Colin and Nicole, the always lovely Bron, threw a smile at the heavily pregnant Kez who was well and truely engulfed in a conversation about Babies, which I felt in no way compelled to participate.
I'm not an incredibly outgoing person in everyday life. But every so often I feel the urge to break out of what is considered 'normal Jess behaviour' and act more 'me' amongst strangers. I spotted a couple of girls who I'd never seen at church before and decided to head over and say Howdy. They were lovely, Ashley and Laura were there names, one was a Primary education student [yes we are taking over the world] and the other was studying business. I babbled ridiculously about burning my ear on my curling iron that morning, then spilling my water bottle all over my lap while drink-driving. HAHA! they at least thought I was funny ;) I do my best to make newbies to the church feel welcome, after all, I realise I probably wouldn't have stayed here if the delightful Bron hadn't offered me the same welcome.
I invited Ashley and Laura over to my pew during the service and we chatted for a short time afterwards.
I wandered out to the kitchen to grab a cuppa, though at the last minute decided to go a tea, all week Ive been heading out to coffee with a different buddy each day, so I've decided thats enough coffee for a while. However the second I turned around from dipping my tea-bag
there was Bron's big grin, accompanied with a big hug and we made a date to grab [*sigh*] more coffee :P.
I wandered about the place, introduced myself to a few more people I didn't recognise [ alot of newbies come in when your gone for 3 months] At 12:30 we had another 'Electrolight' meeting. A Youth Conference run by my church, this is only the 2nd year that we've held it and the first year that I've actually been a part of it. Curently I am the sole member of the Creative Design team. Korrine and Donna were my co-pilots, however both have since moved interstate and thus I'm left somewhat alone in the endevour. Kez is awesome and incredibly supportive and keen to be my assistant in anything I see fit. It's all fairly exciting, and it's nice to be able to apply my arty tendencies to something with such incredible potential for good.
I headed back to the flats and straight across to Rissas place. She basically said that there was no way I would be leaving her place untill I'd watched "Much Ado about nothing" [or something similar] based on a shakespearian play. It was highly enjoyable, and the characters made me laugh. I love the language of shakespear!
Left Rissas place at around 5:30. Headed back to my room, got changed into something more casual and warmer. Sat of my bed for about fifteen minutes and read more of "Memoirs of a Geisha" I'm really starting to get into it now, over the halfway mark. The culture is incredibly fascinating, and I envy her glamorous attire - of course there are many things about her lifestyle I don't envy, but the book is fantastic! I'm so glad I decided to read it before I see the film.
Headed to the night service at church. Once again I didn't see the usual mob. Apparantly alot of people were out of town for the weekend, or didn't want to come out due to the horrid weather. I decided that I would embrace the opportunity to sit by myself, completely undistracted by the people around me. It's probably one of my favourite things to do at church, sometimes I'll deliberately sit away from all my girls for the sole purpose of spending some quite time undistracted. It's always sad when some of them can't seem to grasp my reasons. But most of the time they relate fairly well.
On my way out to Cafe` I spotted another newbie, I must have been feeling fairly comfortable in my own skin today, because I headed over to say hello to her. Crystal was this lovely ladies name, though she couldn't hang about, she had to head off for duties at the PLC campus. But it was a pleasure all the same, and we looked forward to seeing each other next sunday night.
Grabbed some Chicken nuggets out the back of the church Cafe` and sat with Clancy and Tess, chatting about all sorts of things we encountered during the week. What I was really hanging out for was Wae-Jae. I'd been over to his place a couple of days before with Laura and Charrissa, which meant that I really hadn't had the the opportunity to chat one-on-one with the boy. Life is very different without him living right next door, I miss my brother.
He had headed out the front for prayer after the service, and so till around 9pm he was chatting with John about whatever it was.
Tess had asked Clancy and I to head outside for a quick chat. Apparantly a conversation with a male in church had left her feeling rather uncomfortable. Knowing this particular male, and going by the body language she had described it wasn't anything out of the norm for him. However we spent a bit of time chatting to Tess about her discomfort being valid, however sometimes we have to consider things in light of who we know people to be. One of the issues Tess had was that as he said goodbye, he gave her a friendly whack on the shoulder and said "See Ya Buddy!" He does the same thing to me, and I love it. However Tess is more conservative and generally quite aware of personal space and contact issues - which isn't a bad thing, it just makes her different, as we all are. I encouraged her to watch for consistencies in the behaviour of people in order to determine whether they are 'coming on to you' or not,[did someone say "Josh Harris Sermon"? :P] had she done this with Roger, as I'm sure she will now, she'll discover that he is just a friendly bloke, not sleazy at all. Clancy and I prayed about the whole shibang with Tess and I hope she was feeling better.
Tess and Clancy headed off, but I decided to hang around, in a final desperate attempt to knab a bit of Waje time. I wandered up to the main Church hall to find Waje in there alone, packing up the microphones. He was on the sound Desk tonight, and so I wandered up the aisle and chatted away with the boy as we attempted to find all the light switches. He rode his bike over, and so I managed to convince him to let me give him a ride home - due to the rain, but also so we could at least chat for a little while in the car. After cramming the bike in the back, Waje decided he was hungry, so we headed across to Hungry Jacks, grabbed some food and a booth, and sat and chatted for what felt like the best hour in a long time. Realising it was 10:30pm we decided it was time to go, I have no classes tomorrow, but Waje had to work. So I dropped him back at his place and we did our won't-die joke. We both put on this deliberate awkward silence, which we replicate even with other people in the car. It originally came out of our muckings that when 2 people of opposite genders end the night is there always that awkward, 'do I give them a kiss goodnight?' And so we still do it to this day, which other people in the car find weird, coz they don't have a clue why the awkwards silence starts, or what it means.
I adore the fact that WaeJae and I have the sort of friendship where romantic's aren't an issue,[even though we still get those 'looks' from people, who just don't get it] I love that we can be completely candid about relational issues and get the low-down on the opposite gender, while supporting each other in our quests for love :P. He's a fantastic brother. Once we tired of our awkward silence joke, he climbed out, grabbed his bike and we both vowed to get together for more fun times, just-like-old-times-in-the-flat, soon. I miss my boy.
And so, I headed back to the flat. Had a quick chat with Scott across the hall, he's one of the RA's this year [Resident Assistant] after about 5 minutes of chatting his phone started buzzing with some first year complaining that they had locked their keys in their room. HAHA! poor Scott, it was the 5th one tonight. And so here I am, at the end of a day which started out fairly ok yet turned out great!
I am blessed here in Armidale! Thankyou Lord.
Though ever since I've been back 5 people have said "You look Different, Jess" I think it's a compliment. At least I hope so.
Saturday, March 04, 2006
hmm...[<--thats doesn't make me a teeny bopper]
Arrived back from riss' flat at something close to 12am, walked in the door of my flat 23, to see Sam and Pete sitting around the table, deciding the night was still young I joint them. Pete use to live in the flat downstairs from me last year, we met twice and saw each other often, without ever really conversing properly. Seeing as 2 out of 3 of us were arts/politics students, it didn't take long for the conversation to shift to that topic. James arrived on the scene and joint the convo.
I was grateful when Scott arrived, bringing a fresh topic and munchies [Aussie BBQ sausages, repulsive, yet strangely addictive....we decided it was all in the after-taste]. For the next 3 hours we sat about the place discussing all sorts of weird and whacky things. I was struck by the intelligence of Pete, and the way that as quickly as he talked about the most mundane and idiotic things, he would shift into a topic of depth and substance. He is a rare breed among College boys.
But the night gave me the opportunity to further develop a theory, or shall I say Strategy of mine. I'm not sure whether you have ever noticed, that girls are rather stupid. Pete informed me that girls are stupid for different reasons to guys, but that it was inportant to note that we all bring our own level of stupidity to everything.
I don't know whether you've ever noticed this, but I know I'm sick to death of the backstabbing, the bitchiness and the horrible attitude many females have to one another. So I've decide that now is the time for us to unite. Perhaps you'll say that you haven't noticed, and it may very well be true. But what I'm talking about right now is among non christian gals within my life. Not all of them_are_ horrible or malicious...often the contrary. My goal however is to attempt to create a greater sense of unity amongst the non-christian females I come into contact with.
The very first test I was able to establish, came this same night as we sat around the table. I was picking up the vibe that Sam was interested in scott. Scott was ragging sam playfully, and Sams response was sadly what happens all too often. She turned and began to rag on me. It is a sort of bully strategy, to take someone else down in order to make yourself appear better/bigger. Though I know where it was birthed from, it flowed from her fear of competition over this male.
However, because I had all these thoughts churning through my head at the time, rather than feeling resentful, I was able to stay suprisingly calm and collected about it.
I could see that Sam was feeling very small, her ego was wounded, thus the attack on another female. I made the decision upon the direction I would take, and yes I had choices.
a) Return the pay outs to Sam, or
b) Join forces and gang up on scotty.
They would be the obvious choices, I however decided to create a 'C' and instead, attempt to rebuild Sams broken ego. I turned looked at Sam and chucked a compliment her way. Judging by the pause in conversation, it threw her, completely, threw the boys too.
Then today as Sam and I were chatting with Scott, it was interesting to see her in that same situation. There was almost this unspoken alliance between us.
interesting...
though I'm not expecting this to be it. I have an inckling it's something she's done for quite some time, so I expect it to rear up here and there from time to time. However I'm determined to continue to play out my strategy, with all the females in my life. It shall be interesting to see the results as they come.
So tonight I ate Pizza with Riss, before we both trecked back to my flat and chatted with Scott. Riss headed home, and I suddenly had the urge to give Kate a ring. Turns out she was driving,had to pull over, but just driving to clear her head. So I jumped in my car and we sat and chatted together for something close to an hour. It's always fantastic to hear her voice, and it was nice to talk through some things going on in both our lives.
Perhaps the most beautiful thing about our relationship is that we may not talk as often as we'd like, but no matter what, that relation to one another is always going to be there, no matter where we go, what we do, She will always be my sister, and I will always love her.
So we've made a date for friday nights, I'll give her a ring once a week and we'll have a good chat :D fantastic!
So I think I'll head back to the flat when I finish this, and hope that perhaps theres another dining table discussion going on. Who knows I may be lucky enough :)
I was grateful when Scott arrived, bringing a fresh topic and munchies [Aussie BBQ sausages, repulsive, yet strangely addictive....we decided it was all in the after-taste]. For the next 3 hours we sat about the place discussing all sorts of weird and whacky things. I was struck by the intelligence of Pete, and the way that as quickly as he talked about the most mundane and idiotic things, he would shift into a topic of depth and substance. He is a rare breed among College boys.
But the night gave me the opportunity to further develop a theory, or shall I say Strategy of mine. I'm not sure whether you have ever noticed, that girls are rather stupid. Pete informed me that girls are stupid for different reasons to guys, but that it was inportant to note that we all bring our own level of stupidity to everything.
I don't know whether you've ever noticed this, but I know I'm sick to death of the backstabbing, the bitchiness and the horrible attitude many females have to one another. So I've decide that now is the time for us to unite. Perhaps you'll say that you haven't noticed, and it may very well be true. But what I'm talking about right now is among non christian gals within my life. Not all of them_are_ horrible or malicious...often the contrary. My goal however is to attempt to create a greater sense of unity amongst the non-christian females I come into contact with.
The very first test I was able to establish, came this same night as we sat around the table. I was picking up the vibe that Sam was interested in scott. Scott was ragging sam playfully, and Sams response was sadly what happens all too often. She turned and began to rag on me. It is a sort of bully strategy, to take someone else down in order to make yourself appear better/bigger. Though I know where it was birthed from, it flowed from her fear of competition over this male.
However, because I had all these thoughts churning through my head at the time, rather than feeling resentful, I was able to stay suprisingly calm and collected about it.
I could see that Sam was feeling very small, her ego was wounded, thus the attack on another female. I made the decision upon the direction I would take, and yes I had choices.
a) Return the pay outs to Sam, or
b) Join forces and gang up on scotty.
They would be the obvious choices, I however decided to create a 'C' and instead, attempt to rebuild Sams broken ego. I turned looked at Sam and chucked a compliment her way. Judging by the pause in conversation, it threw her, completely, threw the boys too.
Then today as Sam and I were chatting with Scott, it was interesting to see her in that same situation. There was almost this unspoken alliance between us.
interesting...
though I'm not expecting this to be it. I have an inckling it's something she's done for quite some time, so I expect it to rear up here and there from time to time. However I'm determined to continue to play out my strategy, with all the females in my life. It shall be interesting to see the results as they come.
So tonight I ate Pizza with Riss, before we both trecked back to my flat and chatted with Scott. Riss headed home, and I suddenly had the urge to give Kate a ring. Turns out she was driving,had to pull over, but just driving to clear her head. So I jumped in my car and we sat and chatted together for something close to an hour. It's always fantastic to hear her voice, and it was nice to talk through some things going on in both our lives.
Perhaps the most beautiful thing about our relationship is that we may not talk as often as we'd like, but no matter what, that relation to one another is always going to be there, no matter where we go, what we do, She will always be my sister, and I will always love her.
So we've made a date for friday nights, I'll give her a ring once a week and we'll have a good chat :D fantastic!
So I think I'll head back to the flat when I finish this, and hope that perhaps theres another dining table discussion going on. Who knows I may be lucky enough :)
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