Tuesday, May 30, 2006

differences.

So the application has been completed online, and the details have been posted to the department of Education and Training.

The date is starting to get close now, 27th of June is the interview and I begin my internship on the 17th of July. I know I've posted about all of this previously, but you'll have to forgive me, it's kinda really on my mind at the moment.

*listening to "Into the West" By Annie Lennox- and falling in love with it a little more.

Thinking that I'm going to have to go over and see Laura soon. She rang earlier today about catching up for coffee, I was in the middle of preperations for DET information which needs to be posted no later than today, so I was a little frantic and stressed, may have been a little short with her. Which unfortunately is how I'm forced to be with her when my patience will not allow - Laura has lived most of her life as an only child, I love her immensley, however sometimes the basic, more-than-one-child-lessons learnt by anyone with siblings have remained unlearnt by Lozza and so at times she can come across as pushy and needing things her own way. I am generally patient, however today I really didn't have the time to teach her the lesson necessary and the conversation felt tedious all the same;

Lozza: Hey Jess, wanted to do coffee today, you up for it?

Jez: Sorry Loz, I'm frantic at the moment trying to post off this stuff to the D.E.T.

Lozza: So your not coming then?

Jez: Raincheck? I can't really afford it till wednesday, and this stuff has to be done today, or else I'll be up that creek we all know and love, without my paddle.

Lozza: So I have to go for coffee on my own then...well I won't look half ridiculous on my own will I!

Jez: Well if you want coffee badly enough you won't mind doing it on your own. I'm sorry Loz but I can't do it today - my timetable isn't always going to fit yours - Today it obviously isn't...tomorrow maybe

Lozza: Well I was looking forward to seeing you - I would have hoped you'd have the same enthusiasm.

Jez: I'm struggling to be enthusiastic about anything right now, all I know is this HAS to be done now...we will do coffee soon, and I'll look forward to seeing you, it just can't be today - at least try to understand where I'm coming from, lozza, I'm too stressed to have to deal with anything else right now...I need you to understand that, please.

Lozza: Oh I understand fine...no coffee today.

Jez: but soon, tomorrow's clear for me...

Lozza: well you'll just have to hope my timetable lines up with yours then...

Jez: Yeah I will, and if it doesn't there will be other opportunities...life goes on Lozza, it's not like we'll never see each other again.

Lozza: *huff*

Jez: but alas, I have to go, I need my other hand back to shuffle these papers. I'll see you tonight anywhoo, I'll pick you up at 7 for small group.

Lozza: Yeah righto...

*Hangs up*

Slightly started by the abrubt hanging of the phone without a farewell. Momentarily considered 'forgetting' her for small group...which was quickly followed by the thought to be gracious.
It's interesting being confronted with people who have lived very different lives from your own. I'm meeting more and more of them of late, and they do test me, they test my character and make me realise how much further I have to go in order to truely love with a holy love.
But I'm trying, so thats got to count for something, surely.

I will chat to Laura soon, and I'll practise patience.

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Life.

Have I mentioned that I hate computers?...okay so maybe hate is a strong word, I dislike computers. I can work them, work the basics, type, internet, photo's etc etc ect. But ask me to explain the inner workings of a computer, the cache, CPU all that sort of jazz and I'm royally screwed. Thus I shall have to resubmit that assignment. Infact I think Tim will be helping me with it this time.

So yes. Life, my walk.
in one word...GREAT!...
We've been working through the DVD teachings of John Bevere "Drawing Close: a life of intimacy with God" and can I say this. If you ever have the chance to read that book or see the DVD teaching, you have to grab it with both hands and not stop drinking till its done. I invested in the book because the teaching has been so fantastic I don't ever want to forget it, I want to be able to be reminded of it constantly.

For that last few weeks I've been pretty much living at Laura and Tims place. Spent last night sitting in the lounge room with Tim, Laura and Suzii watching "House" - have I ever mentioned that I love that show. It was great. There is something incredibly fulfilling about spending quality time with people, talking and laughing, no agenda's no 'must-do's' just loving the company and not wanting to leave it.
I realise that I have been incredibly blessed in this life. God has been kind - sometimes too kind. Nevere failed me, never left me hanging, never given me less. He is wild, dangerous, never tamed, but always good.
I love my God and I will proclaim that untill the day I die.

I'm sitting here in the computer labs at Uni - received a text message from riss this morning, confirming that class was at 11 and that she would see me in computers, yet here I am at 11:55 and there is no sign of riss. Three girls already tried for the seat beside me and I had to, as politely as possible, tell them to back away before I started swinging the bag that was minding the seat. ;)
I've decided that the next person to ask for the seat can have it - I can already picture the glares I'll get from the 3 other girls who were rejected. ah well, they found other computers, I'll be leaving as soon as I submit this anyway. I have a lunch date.
Bec and Riss every thursday, at 1pm in the bistro. Chips and Gravy - mmmmmmmmmmmhhmmmmmm...
I'm starving, right on cue as I typed the words 'chips and Gravy' my stomach let out a huge growl - food sounds good. havn't eaten today yet. I know I know breakfast is the most important meal of the day, my mum said the same thing to me, yet ironically, she never ate breakfast either - children mimic, what can I say :P

So yes, I just realised how boring this must be for you - I'm pretty much just typing everything as it comes into my head, no internal dialogue, just letting it ooze all out.

I have to get copies of every prac report I've had, to send off to the Department of Education so that I can actually get a teaching Job.

My big interview has been booked - I will be interrogated and they will decided whether I can teach on the 27th of June. Prayers would be most appreciated. but I feel confident, If I didn't have what it takes then I would like to think that at least one of my prac teachers or lecturers would feel the need to let me know. that is if I hadn't caught on myself. I still get passionate about teaching - and if the day ever comes when I don't then I think I'll leave it, kids don't need crusty angry teachers who really don't care.

My internship has been officially confirmed today. From the 17th of July untill the 22nd of September you will find me, 5 days a week at Taree Christian Community School, with year 6. I'm looking forward to it. I'm looking forward to being known as Miss Braybrook again. Yes, Yes it is a power trip. and I love it. :D

well I shall irritate you no more. I will go. You may have noticed that It's only 12 and I've said I don't meet the girls till one. But I'm thinking that I'll go find my bench from last week in the main courtyard. using my bag as a pillow and I'll sprawl myself along it, and soak up the sun. I swear sometimes that I 've gotta be a reptile, I'm cold blooded for sure.

alas that bench sounds awesome, and lunch sounds even better. Have an awesome day.
And call me sometime. I miss my people, but more than that I miss my friends, my brothers and sisters, the ones I love.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006


Jesus the Man!
I'm so in awe of what 'Jesus the God' did.
But Jesus the man was so hardcore, so radical.
I so sO SO want to be like him.

Monday, May 08, 2006

quick update [comes with free apologies]

I know I haven't blogged in yonks. In fact I haven't really been online much recently. I'm coming to the last 3 months of Uni - FINALLY! which means that I head out on my teaching internship very very soon, and yes I'm nervous. This ones big, depending how I go on this, it could mean a job at the end of it. I managed to score the internship at Taree Christian Community School with Year 6 and it's going to be fantastic, everyone who I have spoken to has said it was fantastic!

So what's been consuming my time? Assignments and official teaching document preperations. Yes it's all great fun :S. But alas it needs to be done and as much as I wish the blog didn't have to suffer, for now it shall have to.

But to leave you with a really quick update;

Lozza made the big step and dyed her [blonde as it can come] hair dark brown














Personally I love it. looks so glossy and lovely - though I've always been a dark hair sort of gal.


And Waje Fell in love with Tims Cat Dizzy.





















All in all, life is Crazy/Beautiful [<----- one of my favourite movies BTW ;) ]