Dedication to a real man!

He makes me so proud!
Words cannot even begin to express _..- The love and respect he pours into my life blows my mind sometimes. I know I've found something amazingly special in this incredible man.
I am so proud of the person he is.
xoxo
With all my love.

It Begins...

Today being Tuesday means that I have now completed Day 2 of my ten week teaching internship at Taree Christian Community School.

Monday morning, bright and early I was out of bed. The alarm buzzed at around 6:45am to which I let out a mighty groan. I had spent all of sunday feeling relatively calm and even mentioned at one point how I was surprised that I really wasn't nervous. However in true Jessica style it was once I was given an opportunity to really think that I began to worry.
As I lay in bed at 10pm [attempting a good nights sleep, which actually begins before the wee hours of morning] I could not for the life of me sleep. I was nervous...really nervous. True to form Timmy rang and we chatted for a good 45minutes, before he put the foot down and told me to get some sleep. I recited some bible verses which have an history of calming me and I think at around 1pm I finally drifted off.

Monday morning was probably the worst of it. Once you get me talking, I'm pretty chatty, but naturally I'm fairly soft spoken. So as I sat there in the car, in the carpark I felt freakishly close to tears, before I snapped myself out of it and told myself to take a breath "Your gonna be fine!"

In I wandered

And how should the day begin? Well of course God is merciful and of course he had already knew I was going to be nervous, and so of course he wants to calm me...in the best of ways and begins the day with Praise and Worship..."How Great is our God, Sing with me How Great is our God..."

I was feeling better already.

Met my prac teacher, and had a good chance to chat with her today. Can I say that she is absolutely lovely, what I admire most is her humble honesty. I think that I can say with confidence, that she is the fisrt prac teacher who I do not feel, even slightly patronised by. She's also a fantastic teacher.

The students are your typical, and in the staffroom I heard mentions of them being 'difficult' however difficult is not the word I'd use. After the class I shared a room with last Practicum, these kids are by no means hardcore, if anything perhaps a little immature for their age. [but then, who am I to judge :p]

_..- And so tomorrow I teach my first lesson. Honestly I am nervous, but the more I teach, the more I get used to it, and pretty soon I'm right at home.

Wednesday: Handwriting
Thursday: Handwriting, HSIE and Computers
Friday: Art.

It's a scary business heading somewhere that you know no one, and a part of me desperately wants to avoid it. But another part says that I will never reach my dreams if I'm unwilling to change, if I'm unwilling to rock my world and struggle for a while. Nothing worth anything is always going to be easy - and it shouldn't be, because if it is then it requires nothing of me.
But when it gets tough, when I have to dig deep, thats when people see what I'm really made of - and sometimes - yes sometimes I even make myself proud.

I was made for this, and I'm gonna give it all I've got.

Lets share prayers some time.

xoxo

Time...

In just waiting for this page to load, I realise just how long it has been since I have created a post of any real substance, and I appologise sincerely for the lacking of such for so long.
Lets see shall we...

I have officially moved out of Armidale. As of the 30th of June I am no longer a resident of Wrights Village; anyone who knows me well, knows that I am indeed an incredibly sentimental creature, so yes it was sad to be leaving. After four years living in the place called Wrights Village, the cheaper version of University life I've grown rather attached. If anyone is considering a move to Armidale, and wants a great place to live then I can recommend 'The Village' it's been fun, and it's a bit sad to be leaving it now.










Wrights Village [flats and valleyball court]

So for at least the next 10 weeks I'll be living at home with Mum and Dad. The interesting thing is, that Kate is living with mum and Dad also, and now it seems that Matt is moving back in for a while too. It's all actually rather ammusing, like a circle of life almost. As I find myself coming to a close of this stage in my life, the stage of the student, and preparing myself to step into life as a 'real adult' it's like beginning right where I left off four years ago; living at home with Mum, dad, Kate and Matt. To be perfectly honest, there is something incredibly comforting about that fact, gives me a renewed strength. To know that four years ago I found myself here, terrified, but here I am at the end of it, stronger and happier than ever before - I KNOW that I have what it takes!!

Other happenings...

Right now I'm reading 'The Irresistible Revolution: Living as an ordinary Radical' By Shane Claiborne, and can I just say that it is Fantastic. I find myself so inspired by him and his passion. But more than anything it is his honesty and humble spirit which makes him most appealing as a storyteller. If you get the chance have a squiz.

Also, right now I can't get enough on the Track "Imprint" by Double Drive, from their album 'Blue in the Face' great band - great track.

On Monday I begin my teaching internship. 10 weeks in the primary school system, by the end of it, taking on the whole teaching load, supported by my Prac teacher. It's a scary sort of excitement, knowing that this is my chance to shine, and really show what I've got. Depending on my performance during this internship, is the difference between work and no work. I know I have what it takes!!

what am I missing? Missing Timmy - we celebrated 4 months on Saturday, and he was in town for the the festivities at Belles place as we celebrated Den and Cathy's last night in NSW before they headed back to Melbourne. Was rad to see them here is this state and I look forward to their next visit to our little part of the state.

I'm loving my time with Katie, getting to know Katels all over again. We've always been best friends and I never doubt that we always will be...but living in the same place and having the opportunity to chat on completely transparent levels means that we're reignited that level of closeness that has been lacking slightly over the last few years. I love that time.
In fact I love my time with my family, and I'm more than happy to be here now.
I'm looking for places and hoping to have a deposit on a house by this time next year. So I'm enjoying my time living at home, while I have it.
I am growing up, and being a kid really doesn't feel all that long ago.
But these times are exciting, and I'm glad to be here, and even more thrilled to be adoring it.

Stay beautiful and keep smiling at the day :D