Thursday, May 21, 2009

Some truth in my diet




I found myself chasing my identity through what I did rather than who I was.
Who I was, now lets not get confused here, who I was on the surface was still pretty pitiful, but when I say that, rather than chasing the elusive rainbows of fulfilment through deed, I should have been finding self fulfilment in simply being me. By that I mean that when all selfishness, all grasping, all tainted, broken existence is put aside, what God created in those dark places, before my form was ever acknowledged or seen by this world – what God planned from the beginning of time, was good. Like all of Gods plans, creations and purposes - what he created me to be IS good.
Now regardless of what I may do, how I may fail, where I may find myself led astray, that does not eliminate the core of it all – That I am irrevocably and unconditionally loved. Full stop. No deeds necessary, no cool kids to impress, no “You must be this tall, or this old, or this spiritually wonderful’ signs in sight.
My biggest challenge in the quarter century that is my life, is understanding that simple, yet mind blowing, life altering, perspective changing fact.
Everything I do from there, everything I say, everything I think, everything I was -I am - needs to flow from that place, from that truth.
That God is God – and I am a product, a testimony of his great love.