Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
It seems that this poor blog here has been severly neglected. If there is actually anyone out there who reads this, then I sincerely apologise for my laziness in posting. However since I remain under the impression that it is only I who I am writing for, then I owe myself the apology. As I never seem able to work through the blessings of life as I can when I write, and so, short of calling it a new years resolution, I shall write more, again.
6. Six.
That is the number of weeks it has been since I have worked. The number of weeks since I have last seen a pay check and the number of weeks in which I have found myself more and more, pondering my future. Our future.
School holidays have meant that there are no teachers whom I can 'relieve' and since I am still considered a casual, I don't fall under that wonderful blanket of 'holiday pay' - what a glorious phrase it is!
I have been looking and applying for permanent, and semi-permanent teaching work, and for a while there, getting rather disheartened by the fact that there simply had not been interest thrown in my direction. However I am one of those prayers, who asks that God would quite simply 'open the doors I should walk through and slam shut those which I am to leave'.
The silence from possible emplyment has left me feeling that none of the jobs I have considered have yet to be 'mine' the one which is God ordained. Nevertheless I have continued to apply, whilst allowing myself to dream.
Tim and I have been chatting of late[well we shat all the time really ;) ] We have basically come to the conclusion that I do not feel compelled to teach full-time. I had always asked of Tim, that if I ever seemed to lack the passion for teaching then I need not persue it, as it is one of those careers which you simply cannot fake. You are responsible of massive things, this is the shaping of little lives we're talking about!
So, together we have decided that I shall continue to teach casually. That is where my heart is at right now. While I persue other passions and desires. In the 2nd semester of this year I will begin a course in makeup design and application and I must say I'm massively excited about it.
I have my teaching degree and I know that it was not for nothing. I plan to use it to step off from, to continue to teach casually, earning money which will allow me to persue this other direction.
I feel excited and energised. I was falling into a rut, settling into a complacancy of sorts. looking in the eye a career which lacked the artistic excitement I yearn for.
Love Love Love goes out to my amazingly supportive and all-together wonderful husband, who encourages me to live my life with passion. Theres a chance I may try to back out, but it's nice to know that he knows what truly brings me happiness , and thus far has shown an earnest unwillingness to allow me to bore myself, simply out of safety and an easy buck. He's amazing!
I have great ambitions. To delve into womens ministry.
I have this great passion for women, seeing them come to the full revelation of their own worth. Perhaps it sounds obsurd that I should attempt to make women see their inner beauty through external means, but I hope to unlock bigger issues than what shade of lipstick suits you.
I don't know exactly how or when or what, but I'm trusting that God is bigger than all my uncertainties. He knows my heart, I'm just going to try and follow his lead.
6. Six.
That is the number of weeks it has been since I have worked. The number of weeks since I have last seen a pay check and the number of weeks in which I have found myself more and more, pondering my future. Our future.
School holidays have meant that there are no teachers whom I can 'relieve' and since I am still considered a casual, I don't fall under that wonderful blanket of 'holiday pay' - what a glorious phrase it is!
I have been looking and applying for permanent, and semi-permanent teaching work, and for a while there, getting rather disheartened by the fact that there simply had not been interest thrown in my direction. However I am one of those prayers, who asks that God would quite simply 'open the doors I should walk through and slam shut those which I am to leave'.
The silence from possible emplyment has left me feeling that none of the jobs I have considered have yet to be 'mine' the one which is God ordained. Nevertheless I have continued to apply, whilst allowing myself to dream.
Tim and I have been chatting of late[well we shat all the time really ;) ] We have basically come to the conclusion that I do not feel compelled to teach full-time. I had always asked of Tim, that if I ever seemed to lack the passion for teaching then I need not persue it, as it is one of those careers which you simply cannot fake. You are responsible of massive things, this is the shaping of little lives we're talking about!
So, together we have decided that I shall continue to teach casually. That is where my heart is at right now. While I persue other passions and desires. In the 2nd semester of this year I will begin a course in makeup design and application and I must say I'm massively excited about it.
I have my teaching degree and I know that it was not for nothing. I plan to use it to step off from, to continue to teach casually, earning money which will allow me to persue this other direction.
I feel excited and energised. I was falling into a rut, settling into a complacancy of sorts. looking in the eye a career which lacked the artistic excitement I yearn for.
Love Love Love goes out to my amazingly supportive and all-together wonderful husband, who encourages me to live my life with passion. Theres a chance I may try to back out, but it's nice to know that he knows what truly brings me happiness , and thus far has shown an earnest unwillingness to allow me to bore myself, simply out of safety and an easy buck. He's amazing!
I have great ambitions. To delve into womens ministry.
I have this great passion for women, seeing them come to the full revelation of their own worth. Perhaps it sounds obsurd that I should attempt to make women see their inner beauty through external means, but I hope to unlock bigger issues than what shade of lipstick suits you.
I don't know exactly how or when or what, but I'm trusting that God is bigger than all my uncertainties. He knows my heart, I'm just going to try and follow his lead.
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