Homeward Bound.

It seems that the end of another University year has arrived.

I was up at 7am this morning in order to drive Wae Jae to a work related conference,I had insisted the night before that we leave at 8am because I was sure he didn't know where we were going, all he had was a street name and number, apart frm that he was running blind.

But in fine Wae Jae style we didn't leave untill 8:20 which meant that we were driving blindly around town desperately trying to find the street. I tend to handle this sort of stress okay, and not much fazes me, but I draw the line at being talked to like I'm an idiot. Obviously in his frustration, Wae jae started twisting the whole situation so that it was somehow my fault, and preceded to talk to me with the language one might use when speaking to a 5 year old. I mustered up all my strength to keep myself from driving his side of the car into a telegraph pole.

when we finally found the street, I stopped the car one building before the one he would enter and he refused to leave the car until I stopped it in front of the one he wanted...by this stage was silently fuming, while pleading with God to stop me from blowing up. In my stubbornness I told him that considering the circumstances I just endured, I think he could manage to walk 3 meters. And he did.

Things have been interesting in regards to my relationship with Wae Jae. I think he's an absolutely great guy. He just, honestly believes that the whole revolves around himself, and if it doesn't...then it should. majority of the time I'm able to ammuse myself highly with one of my favourite quotes of his, which I use often being "The whole World doesn't revolve around me Jessica".

I guess my only complaint is that while I'm happy to invest in his life, I'm not always convinced that he's doing the same thing on the flip-side...and that wears you down. I guess when you take the time to know someone, and sincerely want to help them and encourage them through life, I'm the sort of person that needs that sort of investment in me also.

When I've chatted to Wae Jae about it, he's always come out with a line like "I'm not your boyfriend Jess" To which I inwardly (And probably have stated outwardly also) scoffed "And just as well - or I think you'd be living in the dog house"
But I don't know, I guess I feel that he's being a cop-out! you don't have to be dating someone in order to invest in them. I think he needs to start looking beyond himself a bit more.

I didn't start writing this in order to create a slag-out Wae Jae session, perhaps my thoughts are irrational, but thats what I'm feeling at the moment, and so in the spirit of honesty I typed them straight up here.

till I type again, stay beautiful.

P.S. and in regards to the post title, I'm heading home on Friday - back to Forster.
So Bee and Hayley; I'll see you soon gorgeous gals.