a long winded explanation.

Alright, so I'll flash back a little, to wednesday.

I woke at 10 and walked the hill with Riss. Meant that I got there about an hour and a half early, but as far as I'm concerned, it was worth it - I absolutely adore Riss's company. We were flatties during first year as we were both terrified and alone in the big world. I shared with her one of those rare clickages, which was instant, and I haven't stopped loving her since.

So I ammused myself in the Library, before in my restlessness [sometimes I think I have ADHD. Either that, or worms :P] I decided to take myself for a wander around the Uni. As I wandered out the electronic glass doors, who should I come across but Riss and Lisa. Class had been cancelled and so we headed off for a Coffee. I hate the Cafeteria at Uni - each new year it swarms with a whole new batch of freshers, who smother the place. For the experienced, they know that the best place to head is into the Bistro, next door, up the stairs where you'll find a million couches in a dimly lit, Jazz bar, style setting. Best seats in the Uni.

Headed off to Computers. Which basically entailed sitting and listening to Tony ramble on about how much he loves his Apple Comp. Riss and I shared the extra chair at the table as a footstool and played "Naughts and Crosses", followed by "boxes" and finally "make something out of the squiggle" untill the hour finally ended.
We trecked back down the hill, ammusing ourselves with our ridiculous babblings.

Loz had messaged me the previous night, to meet for Coffee at "Caffiends" which quickly expanded into Nachos as well - I swear, it was the greatest Nachos ever! Big call I know ;)
Turns out there was a bit of a hidden agenda to the invitation. Loz wanted to chat about Tim, her flatmate and friend - who apparantly was interested in getting to know me better. It would be a lie to say that I wasn't flattered. I'd met Tim a number of times, and I appreciated his company greatly, very easy to talk to, warm and friendly. But at the same time something in me lurched. I don't think I can help it. While I've dealt with the issues of my last relationship, my gut still cops it a bit when the thought of another relationship emerges.
Fear, yes there is fear there.
Fear that I'll be hurt again. But perhaps more than that, fear that such concern will pralyse me to great experiences.
I was really glad Loz was there actually, as I was able to talk it through. Came to the conclusion that for now we'll Leave it up in the air and see where it falls. Be cool, calm and collected.

Thus the reason for my last post. Prayer for Wisdom. Yes, Wisdom.
Lord don't let me be a complete idiot.

Headed back to Laura's flat after lunch together, which meant we had to pass my car parked beautifully near the pedestrian crossing. That park represented the first Parrallel-reverse-park I've done since my driving exam. Three moves on this occasion, however only one move during my driving exam :P.

made it back to Loz's flat, which was empty - I'm pretty sure I sighed, I wasn't really looking forward to seeing Tim just yet, out of fear, it may be weird.
Loz and I sat about chatting- oh man, she had me laughing so hard the whole afternoon, so that by the time Suzii [other female flattie] and Tim got home, I was feeling incredibly relaxed and so relieved that there was no weirdness there at all, if anything it was smoother than it's ever been.

Upon looking at her watch and realising it was 7pm. Loz declared that we should go to the 'stro' tonight. Feeling high spirited, we all quickly agreed - drinks were consumed before we headed off in a Taxi. Destination 'Stro' . Arrived just before 10:30, which meant that we got in for free, any later and it would have cost us $10 a pop.

As we wandered about the place I initially whined to Loz that I knew no one here, but as we left the building to join the bustle on the verandah I quickly realised that there were familiar faces everywhere. Caught up with Lisa[last years flatmate, aka mum] and Jo[one of my first year flatmates who I hadn't seen since] Moved along to bump into Sam [Current Flattie] and finally met her boyfriend whom I introduced myself with the statement "So your the boy!" only to have him return with "I'm no boy, I'm a MAN!" ammused me highly. Kept on wandering, untill I came across Pete, ragged him about standing with his friends, which pretty much consisted of 2 cans of Jack Daniels - chatted briefly. Tracked down Laura and Tim, met some freshers. Feeling a little bored, when along came Dan [The Man] and Luke. Chatted to the two of them for close to an hour, utterly consumed by the conversation. Spotted Droopy[one of the security blokes who Bec and I have habitually eaten lunch with on a thursday] He gave me a brief salute. Pete returned and planted his butt on the table beside me. Chatted less briefly this time. pottered across to chat with Justin, before Pete returned again with another can of Jack, having never tried it, I did the shameful Kindy Kid thing and said "Does that taste any good?" to which Pete rolled his eyes before smirking and handing over the can :P.
Before I really knew it, the night was all but over, and they started the rounds, letting us know we needed to head out an exit.
Headed up to the free bus, in the hope there may be a chance they pop us in town. The Bus usually makes a free dash to the colleges - CHEER! the driver says he'll take the college trip, then swing back round and grab the 10 of us and drop us in town. So we wait.
Laura has me in stiches as she bites chunks out of Gum leafs and blows them noisily in an attempt to send them flying as far as possible, while Tim chats away to the 10 security guys standing about. Oh yes, we were defintiely safe. Apparantly they don't all have to stay, but they do, so they get paid for the time they really aren't doing anything other than socialising.

Jump on the bus, Loz and I dash for the back seat. Before Tim encourages us to sit closer to the front so the bus driver can be told where to drop us.
Loz immediately gets hit on by a 40-something bloke, who had drunk enough that evening to believe her when she stated that her name was Audrey Hepburn.
We hop off at the Kilda, Loz's admirer hops off one stop after us and we can hear him yelling "AUDREY!" right up till we walk through the flat door. Loz definitely made an impression.

We head in, all with the munchies big time, cook up some Bacon, eggs, sausages and pies...OH MY GOODNESS, was that good or what!

Finally head to bed at around 6am, shared the double. Great matress, slept like a baby. Woke at around 8am and decided that I'd skip my non-compulsory subjects for the day, which meant I lounged around in bed till close to 1pm
Loz and I convinced Tim to join us for lunch/afternoon tea/dinner at Caffeinds... fun.

Here's my issue. I do like Tim.
He's asked me to come over tomorrow night for a bit of a chat. Which will be good. A chance to sort some idea's about each other.

We'll see. If anything, right now, I see Tim being a great friend. Perhaps not boyfriend material. But a great friend no less.

Prayer is always, always appreciated.